BPD Flashbacks of emotional.verbal abuse and bpd

[bluelilly82]

I dont know how to cope with the flashbacks

 

[saffy]

Are you having any therapy Bluelily82.

I also get these and the power of the mind can be very vivid,. You are not alone and I hope you can find some support at least from this forum.

We are hear to listen and will understand :)

Saffy

 

[DharmaGirl]

I don't either but it helps me to say out loud - Its not happening now. Deep breathing, looking for different colors, petting and animal. These things help to ground you. Monster

 

[bluelilly82]

I am having Dialectical Behavior Therapy for the BPD, but am in very early stages of it. My therapist is lovely but I am so scared of losing her. Scared she will one day see I dont deserve therapy and that bits of it were my fault....

I provoked abuse I was that kind of child......That kind of teen......I hate myself because of not having the right to be sad, to grieve victims, have the right to be sad those who partially perpetrate it dont.

 

[DharmaGirl]

So do you have PTSD or BPD? I labeled myself BPD but my T said no, I have PTSD from complex trauma. It is not your fault. Even if you don't believe me I will keep saying it.

 

[saffy]

scared of losing her Scared she will one day see i dont deserve therapy and that bits of it were my fault

That would be very judgmental on her part, so if a therapist is like this you are better of without hun, in my opinion ;)

Therpaist are not suppose to be there to judge or say there opinion on things in that way, that is not supportive at all and will not help you ever. You might loose one but it isnormally because your case is out of their capabilities as a therapist.

One thing you should be is safe in the knowledge that you can be open and honest in a therapy session without them showing personal feeling about something they may or may not agree with. There is, or should be a set of moral and legal codes that the therapist, if trained properly, have to adhere by. And not alll therapist are going to be able to help you in the right way either, but hopefully you will find one who can. I know how you feel though about them not understanding or not seeming to or not seeming to take it as seriously as you want. Makes it harder the next time to disclose for fear of repeated action.

best wishes
Saffy :)