Flashbacks

[claire east]

Here goes I can't deal.with this anymore I'm having so many flashbacks up to five in the day and more at night now I'm getting to the point what I don't know if reality is real anymore.
I'm 2009 I got I'll as a result I started to rember some truma I choose not to rember the more I denied the worse it got I had a lot of counselling and gradually got better up till Christmas time the flashbacks got worse worse I'm crying all the time Christmas is a major trigger as the abuse was worse at Christmas time and I got extra rewards.
I'm so deppressed and down If fighting a losing battle everynight to the point I'm scared to go to sleep as soon as I do they start also lately I've remberd some other stuff from the age of 8_9 to do with my cousin I have so much guilt and shame I just can't let go of it now but I'm afraid it's gonna be the death of me I'm seeing doc tom she wants to.put me on diazapan to help with the sleep I just want to get better I'm having my second session of hypnosis on the 30 March to help me any advice

 

[book6672]

Have you tried any grounding techniques or ways to distact yourself when the flashbacks and memories come?

 

[Sideways]

@claire east
I think I know what you mean (if that helps), & I'm hanging out for someone to come to the rescue with a bulletproof answer (which doesn't help!).

I get flashbacks pretty regularly, & I pull out the grounding stuff and wait for them to pass, and mostly I can get through it these days without crumbling completely.

But every few months or so, I'll go through a period of some weeks, usually 2-4 weeks but it varies, where it's virtually continuous. I'll have my first flashback before I'm even out of bed, and during those times, I wouldn't get through a full hour during the day without having at least one. Sometimes, for several hours, it will be almost literally continuous, with less than 10 minutes between them. Those weeks just survivng becomes a real struggle. It's terrifying going out, because they're so real, and so constant, that in my head I'm convinced other people must be able to see what I'm seeing or feeling.

The worst part is that my grounding completely fails me (which is a big statement, because I've got pretty robust grounding techniques to manage my DID). It's not that they don't work, it's more that the emotional drain from the continuous flashbacks is just too devastating. I'm an avid "don't let others see I'm suffering" kind of gal, but during these periods, I'll frequently be reduced to (literally) a balled up sobbing mess on the floor. Profoundly debilitating. And nope, no apparent trigger I'm aware of.

The best I've got so far is to drop prn meds till I'm completely zombified (yes, that just became a real word), and wait for the period to exhaust itself and pass.

Like I said: Come forth with your solutions people! I'm all ears on this one.