Fuk This Shit

[Deleted member 20280]

Thank-you fellow Countryman, you may not be resident with the UK anymore but you will always be a Patriot and a brother @Neverthesame .

Your reply is greatly valued.

 

[Stickler]

Glad you're ok, mr Laurie. :hug:

 

[Rumors]

Just wondering, but what medicine do you take that without it for one dose you will die? Wow... I probably would set a timer on my calendar a week before I ran out so that I could go in and have the script in hand!!! I didn't know that people actually lived dose to dose like that. I know heart meds obviously can make someone feel weird without taking them but I didn't know there were functioning people living outside of a hospital ICU that had to take a medicine or they would die after missing one dose. That is scary as hell.... Yikes.

 

[illusionist]

I have a friend who has a brain tumour and takes meds to basically keep him alive.....he travels the world to do with work and once he forgot to take a med, just one tablet and was really lucky that he managed to get the help, at the time, before it was too late.

Glad you are ok Laurie..

 

[seedling]

Glad you are OK Laurie. No fun being that scared and thinking no one cares.
Congrats on all that you cope with so well.

 

[NewDayTomorrow]

Similar issue with me. Sorry to say in case you do not have CVS there but my local CVS has saved my life too without me knowing it at the time. I live in Amercia though so it may be harder in the UK. Psych ward here, is a good place to stabilize after a med mixup. Even though we hate to go there, sometimes it is the best option for staying happy and healthy and safe. Wish you all to stay well through your struggles. Thank you for your rant Mr. Laurie.

 

[ms spock]

So this is not being done to put your life at risk or stuff you around? It is being done to make sure you don't use your drugs to suicide? So they are in fact keeping their duty of care to you by not giving you the means to be ultimately self destructive? So you haven't been abandoned, you are being looked after the best way that the system can at this time?

As I am on such a high dose of CD'S they refuse to issue me with my meds, due to my escalating MH issues they are very cautious as I am on the *High to Extreme Suicide Register*

So what proactive steps can you take to manage your suicidal ideation, and thus your mental health, so you can get off the High to Extreme Suicide Register?

 

[ms spock]

Even saying they are 90% to blame for this situation. What is your responsibility in the 10%? How can you manage to do something for yourself for you to get better? How can you take your mind off being wronged by the world and do something for yourself?

You told me you were going to man up and take responsibility for your life from now on and not blame the people in the past but own it was your behaviour that got you in to this situation. So can you make a 1% step in that direction today? What can you do for you?

I would suggest that you really get into Self Compassion because of the severe childhood abuse. I think that could be important for you.

I would suggest that you do DBT for your Borderline Personality Disorder - it works, the research shows that.

You are worth a lot more than endlessly spinning your wheels in this manner @Mr Laurie.

You are four weeks sober - that is something to celebrate!

How about interacting with people through a prism of your successes rather than the lower times? You know people will still like you when you are not in crisis.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Historically @Ms Spock you are totally correct. I have been a complete Idiot regarding my medications.

However after my last sectioning recently I have written a chart of what medications I must take and when. My four doses per day are all made up the night before and placed in the medicine cabinet clearly marked at what time of day I need to take them, I have set 4 alarms on my phone to prompt me to take them so I do not forget to take them. If I go out for any reason I take two small pill bottles clearly marked and I put my medications in those pots.

My issue regarding my medications if the fact that I am now an epileptic and have been prescribed a recovery medication by my specialist, they give me 1 tablet per day for recovery, I have several seizures on some days and need 1 pill for every seizure to recover, so by only giving me 1 tablet per day and refusing to give me sufficient recovery Pills IMHO they are putting my life at risk.

I also have a serious gastric medical problem for which I have again to take a PRN medication, if I don't take this pill the chance of me developing a serious/critical gut issue that will see me in hospital is hard to even comprehend. The medications they have refused to give me are these 2.

Yes I have been in crisis the last few weeks and I am still dry, I am feeling so much better both mentally and physically, My medications are now under control and I am sleeping much better, my rib fractures are healed and I am no longer in agony every time I breath, my knee is healing well and I am off the walking stick for the past 4 days.

I value your advise @Ms Spock and thank you for you comments.