KwanYingirl
MyPTSD Pro
A few weeks ago I literally collapsed on my longtime Ts couch and said please help me I’m so depressed and have been for months. There was an intrusive memory that was haunting me, running over me, over and over. I tried everything I could think of to make it stop. Then later that day I begged my Shaman to help me. This memory won’t go away. So they had a chat and my T said it’s time to talk about EMDR. At first I was elated I’d been working and waiting to be grounded most of the time and finally he believes that we can do some preliminary work around containment and self care. Hooray I’m thinking. I never thought I could get grounded but my Shaman and masseause work on my chakras and we do shamanic journeys I have my spirit animals and my pal, an older indigenous Man who guides me.
Then as quick as a wink I put on the brakes. No no I’m not well enough, I still disossiate. Classic approach-avoid dilemma. Come on come on KYG your guides say it’s time, this is good news. Ach! What did I do? I cancelled two weeks of therapy but continued with my Shaman. Journeys are so helpful and a super cool time when I’m down in lower world with my Shaman onher stallion.
We’ve decided to do reiki the night before my therapy session and work on grounding tricks. But you know approach-avoid that’s been a close friend of mine forever. Taking any advice from the forum on gearing up for EMDR.
Then as quick as a wink I put on the brakes. No no I’m not well enough, I still disossiate. Classic approach-avoid dilemma. Come on come on KYG your guides say it’s time, this is good news. Ach! What did I do? I cancelled two weeks of therapy but continued with my Shaman. Journeys are so helpful and a super cool time when I’m down in lower world with my Shaman onher stallion.
We’ve decided to do reiki the night before my therapy session and work on grounding tricks. But you know approach-avoid that’s been a close friend of mine forever. Taking any advice from the forum on gearing up for EMDR.