Goal of The Day-Challenging Your PTSD

[ms spock]

Not really much of a goal... but I had been avoiding the beaches since my dad died of kidney cancer.

I think that is quite the reasonable goal The Albatross. I really do.

 

[safenow]

I want to use the threads here to ground myself. That is my goal right now. I can't do anything physical, so I must find something online. and this site is the only place I can think of that can allow me to do that.

 

[ms spock]

I have done a lot today. I find it hard not to be dissociated in my house. So I will be very pleased when I have thrown all the stuff out and made it a home again. I used to do so well and it went haywire these last two years.

I vacuumed the loungeroom and rearranged the furniture. I took the plastic mats outside and shook them.

Next I will clean out the kitchen cupboards.

Anyway I have plans on how to manage it all and that is really good. Sometimes I get stumped and stuck.

 

[ms spock]

I managed my anxiety today really well. I managed to emotionally regulate as well as be out of my emotionally frozen/numb state around my house. So that was stepping out of my PTSD helplessness zone and then some!

I must say I really am on my L plates with this one. I did struggle a fair bit with it. But it is improvement, and I will take that!

 

[Privateer]

Today I'm reading Dead Link Removed.

It's a fairly harrowing account of the Piper Alpha disaster, the response to which was coordinated by the coastguard station I work at (about 20 years before my time, mind you). My dad was at that time in the department of the local police force that dealt with offshore incidents and was heavily involved with the aftermath.

It's difficult reading, sometimes, and I have to take a break now and again, but I aim to have it read by the end of today.

 

[safenow]

I will stay grounded today. I will be calm, and not work too hard. Just hard enough to stay healthy and happy.

 

[winterose]

Goal for today. Laundry, shower, clean my room up, and try to go grocery shopping with my brother. I said try, I haven't left the house for months.

 

[safenow]

I haven't left the house for months.

You can do this. I'm so proud of you for making the effort. Good luck.

 

[winterose]

Thanks safenow. Bro and I are working on signals just in case. I do not want to end up with an episode in the middle of the store. Seriously don't.

 

[safenow]

This is exciting. I was able to stand up for several minutes without pain in my back too bad to continue to stand up. I was able to brush my teeth and even walk into the kitchen and back to the bathroom again. All without the help of a walker.

I do not want to end up with an episode in the middle of the store

If you start to feel not safe, go out to the car. Breathing as you walk. Slow, deep breathing helps to calm. Don't forget that. Ask your brother to remind you to breathe if he see's you're in trouble.

It will be okay.

 

[winterose]

Wow! Look at you go safenow. Woohoo! Next you'll be doing the two-step boogie! Thanks for the encouragement too. My bro and I are working on exactly that right now.

 

[71nothing]

Eat something besides saltines.
Go to the grocery store.
Go out with a friend.