Gone

[Snowflake]

Well my therapist has left on her 12 day vacation and I felt lost, alone and abandoned. I know it's only 12 days but to me it's forever, especially with zero support. It's scary

 

[expectingbetter]

I will have the last session with mine tomorrow and then I will see her next time in September. But trust me I know how you feel right now although it's 'only' 12 days. Sometimes even 2 days are too much.

For me is scary too.

And I feel as well as you - abandoned. It comforts me at least a bit to know I am not only one who would feel this way in such situation.

Please spend more time on the forum, post more and seek support here. I guess I will try the same during the long summer.

I know they are humans too and they need to have a holiday and rest but I feel so betrayed mine has to stay that long.

I don't have a plan how to go through this, if I had I would share it with you.

So far I only feel like suffocating.

 

[Snowflake]

I will have the last session with mine tomorrow and then I will see her next time in September....

Suffocating is a great word! I am hoping to write what I would want to tell her or what i should tell her. But it's not the same as knowing you have an appointment today or tomorrow or knowing you can call and she will get the message.

 

[expectingbetter]

That's sound like a good thing to do, write it down.
She didn't give you a permission to email her while she is absent?
Mine gave me that option but she never answers any message from me and I simply don't believe she would do that this time too.
And I don't have any benefit from pure confessions if no feedback.
And I have a feeling of guilty to write to her, so I don't know if I were able to do it.

Yeah, really suffocating, literally.

 

[Snowflake]

That's sound like a good thing to do, write it down.
She didn't give you a permission to email...

No -can't email or text . I am sure I can call and leave messages but it's not the same knowing she isn't there to get them.

 

[expectingbetter]

Yeah, I know it's nowhere near the same.
I will even be suffering so much because I won't have anybody whole summer to talk in person with. With all other people in my life I have to pretend, I can't be real me, and she won't be here for that. Emails are not the same, even if she answered.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I know it's only 12 days but to me it's forever, especially with zero support. It's scary

12 days is forever for us with no support in your life. I take comfort in knowing that 24/7 I can come here and talk to people that get it, have been there, and can help me talk through stuff. Just how I comfort myself in those scary alone times. :hug:

 

[expectingbetter]

Yeah @lostforgottensoul 12 days are really like forever!
The length always depends on context, if you were sitting on a cactus a minute is forever

 

[Whyteferret]

You have some suport here. Maybe not in person but there are many of us traveling similar roads.

You will make it through

 

[anthony]

especially with zero support

What are you doing here then? Are you being supported? If so, then you aren't left with zero support???

 

[EveHarrington]

:hug:

Are you working toward getting more support? Working toward getting away from the abusive home environment?

 

[Snowflake]

What are you doing here then? Are you being supported? If so, then you aren't left with zero support???[/QU...

I call this cyber support-so yes I guess I have support. It's just not like I can call, text or email anyone here -or get a hug. It's online. But yes it's support