Have Finished My Letter To My Younger Self

[therisa]

Over the past 4 weeks, I have been writing a letter, to my younger self, which I wish I had received, when I was 15 years old, before the summer of 1985. As a warning of the abuse that awaits us, from my younger brother. Well, yesterday, I finished writing it and the editing is done, today.

I was inspired by an interview, on by morning showing, on the local CBC Radio 1, which the interviewee is a childhood sexual abuse survivor, who had plans to run a double Boston Marathon, on Patriot's day, in Boston. He talked, about writing a letter to his younger self, as part of the healing process, which struck a cord, in my own needs, of healing myself.

I will be posting my letter, in my trauma diary, by this weekend, for those, who what to read it. Must warn anyone who does, it is filled with emotional and flashback triggers.

 

[open eyes]

I've never written a letter to my younger self before, but I have written a letter to two of my abusers as well as multiple people who were involved in it.

When you've posted it, could you leave me a link to it on my message board?

I'm sort of debating doing this for myself.

 

[ghotiff]

I like the idea of a letter to myself before it happens.

I never could really get my head about one for during/after it ... I never felt I could say anything that would help...but maybe before might. Interesting idea.

I can't read yours (easily triggered), but would you be comfortable to explain how you approached it?

 

[Notsowild]

Just been taking about doing this with my T . Was it hard? How did you feel during and after?

 

[The Albatross]

Congratulations on achieving your goal and completing your project. Working toward healing, I have found also has been healing.

 

[therisa]

Thank you, everyone, for your encouraging words.

Will do so, @open eyes.

@ghotiff , I understand and this is, why I placed the warning, like I did. I don't want to be responsible for hurting anyone, more than life has, already, done so.

@Notsowild , various parts of the letter, just flowed for me, while other parts were, a struggle, as I fought back the tears that were flowing. In fact, I have wrote about stuff that I have never shared with anyone, including my medical team and closest friend. I know, I was disassociating, during certain sections of the letter, as those memories are, still very raw for me.

@The Albatross , this letter is, probably, my hardest thing that I have done, beside adding I am a abuse survivor, to my M2F support group, last year.

 

[therisa]

The letter is, now posted, in my trauma diary.