Relationship He Turned A New Leaf

[harmony of love]

My loving sufferer, returned from his motorcycle journey with remarkable spirits. I have seen tender shades of the man I fell in love with and gently adore. He called me the night he returned, late in the wee hours of the morning, sounding like his playful self. Told me he was just calling to say, " I loooove you!" I can not describe the utter delicacy in my heart. He has not revealed or expressed such words in...gosh to be honest it has been so long I can not even recall. Melted, half sleep, and still in shock, I replied my love back without hesitation, with jubilee. He has been calling every day, countless texts, and professing his love continuously. We speak about our future and marriage, something that was practically taboo.

Since his treatment, he was unable to show even a percentage of this emotional side. Now, we liberally speak about his triggers, nightmares, well-being, and more. I could not have written our love story and I am in constant awe and elation. This is why I love this man, this is why I still have that fire inside my heart to share my life with him...because as much as the struggles can hurt, nothing outweighs the love!

I dedicate this to all those affected by PTSD, may this genuine message be a warm embrace.

With all gratitude and sincerity
Harmony of Love

 

[amethist]

Great news Harmony.

I hope the future is as sweet as it seems to be right now for you both. With obviously the occasional dip in the roller coaster, but I am sure you can now both hang on together.

Amethist

 

[Reclusive]

Wow, that's so huge! I'm so happy for you guys!

 

[Mockingbird13]

I am so happy for you... If my husband could say anything even and I like you - I would be walking on clouds for days! I pray that this is a good and continuous step towards your future

 

[tangerinetrees12]

I am so happy to read this, my dear friend! :D

 

[harmony of love]

Thank you all so much. He is and will always be the man of my love life. I too, am damaged and struggling...no one is perfect. As many times, as a family member would say...do you really want a life like that? I would say, if he was diagnosed with cancer would I walk away? No, I support him with my whole heart and being. I say to them, no its not easy but the love we generated is worth any feat or effort. God created a strength in me with a compassion to love and help others. I appreciate this source of friendship with you all when the chips fall. You are all in my hearts forever. My prayers are with you.!!!

 

[harmony of love]

Mockingbird, I have been there many times with my love. Each time I was buried in grief over him, it was not easy to pull myself up and out. Turning to our friends on here and TRULY creating a space for oneself to feel life again is what soothed my pain. It may be a storybook of love, but honestly each time I would find my saving grace with God and support, (all the while giving him space) he would come back to me. One of his texts said, as much as I fight against you, I realize I love you more than I have ever loved anyone. Music to my heart. He is a romantic warrior, just has some wounds that need tending too. I hope you find peace and love at every turn of your life.

 

[revelry]

I'm in the same boat.... Do you want some company??? lol...

My babe is struggling, tries to push me away, tell me that i deserve better than him, isolates, but then comes back.

It's compounded by long distance, and work demands (he's military, I work for myself) but we somehow manage to reconnect. It just takes some time (lots od time), patience (even MORE patience), and LOTS of understanding---something I didn't have early on...I didnt have a clue about PTSD and really didn't understand the mixed signals....no one would who doesn't understand it ...hell, somedays I still dont....but i'm not going anywhere. I can see the good days, even if he can't.

 

[Mockingbird13]

Sadly, mine left, and never looked back - he washed his hands of us ...If I did not love him, this would have been easy.