Hello TisJoe -
I'm a newbie to the forum but not to the need to connect with those who understand. As I sit in the hospital, feeling too scared, I am staying strong through the help of this safe place.
I have known a few firefighters, worked with the Red Cross, and witnessed a car and it's "contents" (don't wish to tigger anyone) explode in a horrific accident. So I highly suggest bringing your experiences and feelings into the light of day (at your own pace of course) rather then letting them lurk around in the darkness of your mind/body only to prolong and increase your distress and suffering.
I have found nothing but kind support here and hope you find the same. I'm here if you need an "ear" yourself.
Welcome aboard! :)
Alex