Hello.
My foster sister found this site. She thought it might be more useful to me because I'm not really able to talk to actual people and I have some trouble accepting the label. I haven't been in a war or anything serious.
Was tentatively diagnosed as PTSD as a teenager after the kind of childhood Enid Blyton didn't write about. An uncle who was in the military picked up on the fact that my behaviour was more than me just being "a horrible, ungrateful brat", which was what my parents said made me "difficult". My uncle forced help for me. Various arguments between "professional" types ensued for years. Some said PTSD. Some said CPTSD, which I'm not sure is even a recognized thing. A few said autism. A few of the 106 doctors that have tried to interfere think it's a combination.
That wound up with me being put on lithium and into foster care because apparently, what went on in my parents home wasn't how children are meant to exist.
Then got hit by a car while crossing a road , drunk driver, (weirdly, gave me an understandable fear of roads but did not diminish my car obsession lol). Head trauma and broke every single bone on the left side of my body, so, induced coma, then several months in hospital. Told walking again was unlikely, but I did, eventually. The problems were made worse by being stuck in hospital, mostly isolated because I was kept in a private room and there wasn't any one to spend time with me there. My foster mom was terrific but she had several of us and hospital was a long way away, hospital staff tried but they're busy. A lot of symptoms wrongly attributed to the brain injury the accident caused. Even though the problems were recorded a few years before the injury.
Really just got on with it, because there wasn't a huge amount of knowledge or support. There wasn't really the internet as it is now...Had some very f*cked up years, culminating in two horribly abusive relationships, one physically abusive, including a sexual assault so severe I was told I couldn't have children. (But, I did, eventually:). Moved on to one that was mentally destroying, which with hindsight, I'd take beatings for breakfast, lunch and dinner over the insidious mental beatings...
Had two children, learned to hide the symptoms really well, so didn't f*ck them up too much. Son was diagnosed as autistic, he's awesome but it was hard work getting him this far. Daughter is amazing but sadly, a little bit like her father, so tends to mildly manipulate.
Had an amazing husband who really kept me balanced for 15 years or so. then he died horribly and unexpectedly a few months ago. So the symptoms are going wild again now
My foster sister found this site. She thought it might be more useful to me because I'm not really able to talk to actual people and I have some trouble accepting the label. I haven't been in a war or anything serious.
Was tentatively diagnosed as PTSD as a teenager after the kind of childhood Enid Blyton didn't write about. An uncle who was in the military picked up on the fact that my behaviour was more than me just being "a horrible, ungrateful brat", which was what my parents said made me "difficult". My uncle forced help for me. Various arguments between "professional" types ensued for years. Some said PTSD. Some said CPTSD, which I'm not sure is even a recognized thing. A few said autism. A few of the 106 doctors that have tried to interfere think it's a combination.
That wound up with me being put on lithium and into foster care because apparently, what went on in my parents home wasn't how children are meant to exist.
Then got hit by a car while crossing a road , drunk driver, (weirdly, gave me an understandable fear of roads but did not diminish my car obsession lol). Head trauma and broke every single bone on the left side of my body, so, induced coma, then several months in hospital. Told walking again was unlikely, but I did, eventually. The problems were made worse by being stuck in hospital, mostly isolated because I was kept in a private room and there wasn't any one to spend time with me there. My foster mom was terrific but she had several of us and hospital was a long way away, hospital staff tried but they're busy. A lot of symptoms wrongly attributed to the brain injury the accident caused. Even though the problems were recorded a few years before the injury.
Really just got on with it, because there wasn't a huge amount of knowledge or support. There wasn't really the internet as it is now...Had some very f*cked up years, culminating in two horribly abusive relationships, one physically abusive, including a sexual assault so severe I was told I couldn't have children. (But, I did, eventually:). Moved on to one that was mentally destroying, which with hindsight, I'd take beatings for breakfast, lunch and dinner over the insidious mental beatings...
Had two children, learned to hide the symptoms really well, so didn't f*ck them up too much. Son was diagnosed as autistic, he's awesome but it was hard work getting him this far. Daughter is amazing but sadly, a little bit like her father, so tends to mildly manipulate.
Had an amazing husband who really kept me balanced for 15 years or so. then he died horribly and unexpectedly a few months ago. So the symptoms are going wild again now
