I felt the same way when I joined this site--nobody understands, nobody "gets" me. I now feel like there are many people here who are dealing with similar problems from their past or their current life and it has helped me tremendously. I know you can find understanding here, and I hope that you find understanding for your particular situation to help you to heal from the trauma. I don't know how wise or insightful I am personally, but I will try to help you as others have helped me if I can at all. In any case, welcome to the forum, and I look forward to reading what you feel comfortable sharing. Welcome!