Help When I Don't Feel I Deserve It

[sun seeker]

It's been a while since I've posted asking for help. If anyone prays, in whatever way you believe in (the intent is what matters) would you please? I have gotten myself into a place where I can't manage it for myself. It's like a deep, dark pit I have let myself fall into where I can't be reached and can't let goodness in. I really want to, but I can't. I feel unworthy of it. I don't feel able to do things that might help me feel better or let anyone in to help me. I feel more hopeless than I have in a long time.

 

[Kefira]

Sending you prayers and hoping you can claw your way back out of the pit very soon.
:hug:s if you take them.

 

[poeticmotion]

I will think positive hopeful agnostic thoughts in the direction of whatever organizing principle exists in the universe for you (that is meant sincerely, btw)

 

[hodge]

Sun Seeker, you are very worthy of everything good. I am praying for you. You are not totally into that pit, because you've reached out to us. So please take our good thoughts for you and do whatever you need to do to help yourself.

 

[Ocean5]

Much compassion being sent to you. You will be in my thoughts. I'm sending hope and strength.

Maybe this quote will help you some..
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.”
- Mary Radmacher

 

[Glara]

You're in my thoughts @sun seeker. What you describe is what my ex has described. I wish I could say something to draw you out. I'm not religious but you're in my thoughts, sending you strength to come out of it. I'm glad that you reached out to this community and I know there are many on here to talk to.

 

[City Slicker]

@sun seeker, I am sending you much energy. The support of a group like this can often times help elevate us to levels we don't feel capable on our own. Good on you for reaching out.

 

[PlainJane]

You deserve much love and compassion. You deserve goodness. You deserve whatever help you need. You deserve to feel better, and so much more than that. You are always an encouragement here, and you've helped so many with your kind and honest words. I pray and hope you find people around you that can make you feel better, to not feel hopeless but loved and appreciated. Sometimes the person we need is ourself, which is also the hardest one to find :meh: I hope you feel better soon and believe that you are deserving of all these things!

 

[greenleaf]

I will be sending you positive thoughts. A lot of other very good people and this group are actually all in the same world, including you! -- even though it might not seem that way in such times.

 

[Chava]

Sorry you're struggling. I relate to very similar feelings...can't accept or tolerate any good, very frozen. Does anything very subtle help you at least feel less frozen or less trapped in a pit in even a small way, just for the moment? (not saying it has to make you feel good, because I know that's not often right either)...like a song, a certain sound, holding anything, curling up and just allowing you to protect yourself? I know you didn't ask for ideas, so I'll stop there...but I relate so much to these feelings, so wanted to just shoot that out there.

May you be safe @sun seeker

 

[Care Bear]

@sun seeker it takes a lot of strength just to come out of that dark place and let us all know how you are feeling. Thank you for doing that. You will be in my thoughts during meditation. Please let us know how you are doing.

 

[littlelostchild]

I am sending you positive thoughts. Know that you are deserving of kindness, compassion and love. We are here to support you.