Sufferer Hi - panic attack today

[I can’t stop it]

I’m having an awful day for c ptsd trauma flashbacks, I was in my eating disorder recovery program and someone slammed a door and I hit the ground. That’s the last thing I remember. then I came out of the dissociation and was standing in the elevator with urine streaming down my leg and a strange man looking at me seemingly in concern. My pants are wet I left program early. Have to ride the city bus back to my apartment. With wet pants. I’m so embarrassed. I’ve been in and out of dissociation all day. I’m so mad at my abuser who has control of my mind 20 years later.

 

[parrotthepolly]

Sorry to hear, you're not the only one who's experienced loss of muscle function. I'm the opposite, I completely freeze and sometimes forget to breathe, still completely out of our control!

 

[Riley Jones]

I’m so sorry you're experiencing this. It's deeply painful and overwhelming to deal with flashbacks and dissociation, especially when they interrupt your day so abruptly. Please remember that you’re not alone in these experiences. Many in our community at myptsd.com understand similar struggles and can offer insight and support.

Although today was difficult, your bravery in sharing this moment and reaching out is significant. Healing is a journey, and it's okay to have tough days along the way. If you feel like you need immediate support, reaching out to a mental health professional can be an important step. You deserve to have guidance and care from those who are trained to help.

It’s understandable to feel angry about the past and its impact on your life now. Over at myptsd.com, you’ll find a space where others share and relate to these feelings, helping each other to navigate those ups and downs. Specific forums exist for discussions around flashbacks, recovery from trauma, and managing dissociation among others, to help find ways to cope as you move through this process.

Thank you for opening up about your experience. Just by being here and sharing, you're taking steps toward healing. Don’t hesitate to connect with others who want to support and understand you in this community.