Sufferer Hi, So Glad I Found This Forum.....

[endless]

Hi guys,

I first started suffering with PTSD following the birth of my son, he's now two.
When he was 6 weeks old, I went to the docs,and he just put me on anti-depressants, they did actually work, but I've always felt I would really benefit from talking to someone.

After 6 months of taking the pills, I came off them,and live was relatively normal,just these past few weeks I'm starting to feel all the symptoms again, I've been trying to figure out why?

Probably a build up of all kind of stuff.

Last night I went on one of my "walks" so decided to look for further help, rather than just pills,I really don't want to go back onto meds, for two reasons: 1,I don't like taking any sort of meds,and 2, I'm studying towards a uni degree in nursing,and I don't want to tarnish my medical record any further.

I look forward to chatting to some of you.
Kate x

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[Sazza]

Hi Kate,

Glad you found us, i can understand your concerns about medical record and nursing. I have been a student in the past but sadly got ill but long to return but not sure will due to my MH record. Anyway enough about me, just wanted to say welcome and you will find lots of support on here.

With regards to your studies, if you did need to go back on medication that should not pose a problem, aslong as you are showing you are dealing with your issues that what counts. I wish you all the best with your studies.

Welcome

Sazze

 

[endless]

Hi,

Thanks for the warm welcome.

Feeling a little better already just reading some of the other stories on here, so many tormented souls, its so sad : (

I hope you're able to return to your studies : )
x

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[amethist]

Hi Kate

I am wondering if you are not still suffering with Post Natel Depression, unless you had a very difficult birth, which was traumatic enough for PTSD to be a possible diagnosis.

I ask because even though I had 2 quite easy births with my 2 girls many years ago, I suffered badly for years after, mainly because the PND was not explained to me correctly at the time.

If this it is just Post Natel depression still lingering, which it can, please go back and speak to your doctor, you really do not want a PTSD diagnosis if at all possibly.

Take care.

Amethist.

 

[endless]

Hi Amethist.

I would literally give my right arm, not to have PTSD, really I would.

I'm still having nightmares, and jump at any little thing, can't get out of my thoughts for more than 20 minutes what happened, I'm haunted by it very day. I've pushed all my friends away, I'm living in fear.

I cant look at pics if my son when he was born, it's horrendous,and wouldn't wish this on anyone, especially not myself.

I was on intensive care, following the birth,and they couldn't tell me why? They just said that no amount of medication was helping bring my blood pressure down, and they were waiting for me to have a heart attack or a stroke.

They had my nearest and dearest come visit me, as they feared what might happen that night.

Also my epidural had been put into the total wrong position, so I had a spinal fluid leak, and a lot of pressure around my brain, and had to be tested for brain damage, as when they tried the blood patch to fix the fluid leakage, it didn't work, so they feared that when they pulled my catheter out they may of damaged something, I couldn't sit up, or hold my baby for 14 days, all whilst being told I will probably die. There was much more to it too.

I live in constant fear. But of what? I don't know?

I understand why you posted what you did, but I never had post natal depression, I became depressed as I was living with PTSD,and was not correctly diagnosed with it soon enough, people tend to think as it followed me having a child I must have PND, I didn't.

My depression had nothing to do with my darling, precious little son. Just the awful trauma that I went through.

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[gregorynelson66]

Hello I'm also glad to had this forum and it's a pleasure to on it.
I love it. My blessings to all of you. I''ll hope everyone feeling good and do your work as you want.:tdown:

 

[gregorynelson66]

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[ronnalee]

Welcome to this forum! :)