Hello BDAR. I am brand new here also. I have just recently, within the last month or so gotten my medications straight after 2 years of trial and error. So now I feel ok for the most part. I work every day and am self-sufficient in every way. But the thing I had the most problem with was just simply doing something just for me. So about a month ago, I said the heck with this and went and got my fishing license. And I go fishing every chance I get. And I am having a lot of fun doing it. I meet nice people to boot. Coming to an empty home gets me down and makes me angry as to what the child abuse did to me over my lifetime, but we have to keep fighting. I hope this helped a little...