I Almost

[MrsBeasley86]

I almost admitted myself today. The past week has been rough for me. The past few days have been hell. I wake up in a panic and can't seem to shake it. Somewhere I have lost myself. I'm not the same. I cry constantly. I've almost lost it. In the past week, ive lost 15 pounds. Eating makes me sick.
My husband left work this morning. We went to the hospital. But after hearing the process, I decided not to stay. Being alone is not ok with me. I need my husband, my daughter, and my family. Im calling...no...I'm going to my dr in the morning. I'm demanding help. I want myself back. I want to feel normal again. I can't live this way anymore. Its too much.

 

[Ariane]

I'm so sorry MrsBeasley, :hug: I hope you get the help you need and that everything works out. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help at all.

 

[Deleted member 30850]

:hug: my friend! I wish you were feeling better.

 

[Mallaky]

It sounds like you maybe could have something physical going on. PTSD can do that. Ask your doc about that. I wish you all the best. Demanding help is a very difficult and very wise thing to do! :hug:

 

[Shady_99']

:hug:'s Hope u get feeling better soon

 

[oasis2003]

Hope you find the correct help. It is difficult coping with it all and husband and family as well I know. Maybe see a doc and see if they can offer alternative out patient help .

 

[MrsBeasley86]

Thanks everyone :hug: Its so nice that everyone here is so supportive. Im just ready to find myself and get back to normal! I know I will get there. But I hate the process. Today has been a little bit better. Still not great. But it's a work in progress.