I Always Wonder Whether There Is A Reason Behind This.

[Me Myself and I]

I have never heard about PTSD before, until I had it.

And since then, my life changed completely.

I always wonder whether there is a reason for me having PTSD? Is there a lesson hidden somewhere that needs to be learnt? Is it a punishment for something I did? Or is it just an extreme wakeup call to help me realize, that at the end of the day maybe I am stronger than what I think!

I wish I knew.

 

[rightkindofme]

It is certainly not a punishment. It is the unfortunate natural result of traumatic experiences. It takes adapting but it isn't the end of life.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

I think trying to find a reason for our PTSD can be unproductive. We didn't do something wrong. We aren't being punished. I've come to accept that sometimes crappy people do crappy things and that is why I have PTSD.

 

[franciemarnie]

I think it's another part of the human condition.

 

[kaos]

As I understand it PTSD is a response to a traumatic event that has not been processed by the brain, no closure. Some people can be exposed to a trauma and bounce back, others not so much.

Look into EMDR. I just started a couple of months ago. With a certified therapist you go over a memory. They ask questions about details and how you're feeling. It's supposed to give you the opportunity to finish processing the information.

The only 'lesson(s)' I've picked up are that I am different. In the wrong situation something that is usually a strength can be a weakness and vise versa. I'm trying to harness my strengths and work with my weaknesses.

No, it's not your fault. Blame is part of the condition, there's a list of them. It's who you are now. There are triggers but from what I'm being told I am (you too) very strong. We're still here. There's someone I know that says 'Any day above ground is a good day'. I know it's hard to see it that way sometimes. There's been days that just hearing him say that lightened me up. It's not your fault. Your brain just needs some time and practice to catch up. Quite honestly I think I'm somewhat sharper than the others for being on alert. I think it does make you stronger, more compassionate. It's just those damn triggers.

All the best,

K

 

[Linda Lee Bogard - King]

Damn triggers! Kaos is on target!

 

[cdg]

I am looking into EMDR as well. I hope gets me to just functioning. I don't have to be happy or participating. Just functioning.

 

[Me Myself and I]

functioning.

That's exactly the thing. Every thing will be easier then. I guess.