I can't feel anything in sex,but I'm hyper sexual?

[finallygettingthere]

I can assure you your not broken. I see this stuff as the younger me. Of my bodies saying no it's not broken it's traumatised and deserves to be nurtured and loved. Instead of being angry at my body I try and see how normal it is after trauma that sex would be too much. I go through phases where sex and masturbating is mind blowingly amazing and very very healing. But I'm only like that when I'm in a good place, feeling good about my self and who i am. If I'm drained or stressed then it's a complete write off. For over a year now ive been disconnected sexually. It's vert frustrating and causes lots of depressing feelings but we're definitely not broken. Were humans and were healing x

 

[OliveJewel]

hoping the person wouldn't touch me but that I could please them...all along I have no idea how to do emotional intimacy,

Very much relate to this. Was pretty much my life. I divorced my husband four years ago and in that time had hoped to figure out emotional intimacy. It’s a very slow process for me.

 

[Miss Scapegoat]

Very much relate to this. Was pretty much my life. I divorced my husband four years ago and in that time had hoped to figure out emotional intimacy. It’s a very slow process for me.

I hope you don’t mind me asking, but I’d like to hear more about what divorce and then living alone as a single woman (sorry if you otherwise identify) has been like for you with PTSD? I am new here, literally searching the site by topic “divorce” hoping to give myself the courage to take that step myself.

 

[OliveJewel]

@Miss Scapegoat I would like to answer your question but I am feeling rather tired right now. I will sleep on it and hopefully come up with something for you tomorrow. I have a diary which is currently active so you can find it on the main page for member diaries. I started it when I was still married and trying to figure out how to save my marriage. You can skim it and see if anything jumps out at you. I moved into my own place in May of 2019 so you can also find that spot in my diary if you like. Welcome to the site. Lots to sift through here!

 

[Miss Scapegoat]

@Miss Scapegoat I would like to answer your question but I am feeling rather tired right now. I will sleep on it and hopefully come up with something for you tomorrow. I have a diary which is currently active so you can find it on the main page for member diaries. I started it when I was still married and trying to figure out how to save my marriage. You can skim it and see if anything jumps out at you. I moved into my own place in May of 2019 so you can also find that spot in my diary if you like. Welcome to the site. Lots to sift through here!

Sorry for hijacking this post with my question!

Thank you for your reply. Making my way through now. I’m sorry for what you’ve been through. I am so impressed with your ability to be vulnerable and share your story. It takes a lot of courage. I can see the growth throughout your years of posting. I hope you feel that you’re in a better place than when you started.