I Had A Few Sessions Of Emdr And Now I Can Just Dissociate Easlier

[micky]

i been told i have complex ptsd,but i think i have just been labeled with that because i dissociate/derealization.(i had no child-hood traumas,just few bad car accidents.
i have had a few sessions of EMDR lately.
Before these sessions i would get very panicky/sweaty hands/nervous before and then dissociate.
now i seem to be able to just dissociate now after having a few sessions of EMDR.
I this normal?

 

[The Albatross]

No experience with EMDR, but it is a change - since the pre experiences have changed (maybe improved?+ even though you lost your pre event cues?). Definitely a conversation to have with your T.

 

[micky]

what do you mean by "pre event clues?"

 

[The Albatross]

You said, "Before these sessions i would get very panicky/sweaty hands/nervous before and then dissociate." So panic/sweaty hands/nervous would be pre event "cues" because if I'd understood you properly they occurred before disassociation. (???)

 

[Deleted member 37085]

i been told i have complex ptsd,but i think i have just been labeled with that because i dissociate/derea...

What happens when you "dissociate"? please. For in past dissociative episodes, not so good for me! Please share. Thanks. JJ

No experience with EMDR, but it is a change - since the pre experiences have changed (maybe improv...

Definitely agree with @The Albatross on you speaking with T about this. Hard to understand what's happening with you from what you have posted? I am in emdr and had been overly-exposed to it during 45-60 minute without stopping emdr sessions. And in one the T said for me to come back, come back here, he said that he believed my brain was attempting to dissociate. I hate dissociating. Scary and outer limits experience! JJ

 

[micky]

when I dissociate my mind just goes elsewhere.as if someone has hit a switch.before the EMDR,i would feel myself getting stressed,but now I seem to go straight in to dissociate mode.
the EMDR sessions just made me really emotional,i never said very much,just roller coaster of feelings-if that makes sence.

 

[Deleted member 37085]

when I dissociate my mind just goes elsewhere.as if someone has hit a switch.before the EMDR,i would feel...

Certainly, makes sense to me @micky; sorry took me so long to post back to you. I had emdr session today; pretty wicked nasty this one was and yet I know that T and I are making headway. I most definitely post emdr session feel like my brain has suddenly stopped fully working? Told T today that it was so surrealistic post session like mind was in dream-state, yet I was aware of what was going on around me. However, I did not dissociate this session. Nor in any of the other sessions I have had; T did have to keep me from dissociating in the session before last one (three sessions) ago. I had way to many cascading lights stops and starts and too many connections to connections of trauma on trauma and brain decided it wanted to leave, T brought me back. T and I have changed how long I'm in front of emdr (cascading light) machine. Only 30 minutes now, instead of 45-60 minutes previously. T does not want me to dissociate while in session. Scaled back session time in front of machine.

Looking out from my eyes right after session today, everything was fuzzy-looking like someone had dropped a veil over my eyes; and like you said something like flipping a switch but not quite that fast. My brain simply was operating in a radically different manner; I felt a disconnect to some degree (but not as bad as before); and mind now is struggling to come on-line (so to speak). I just feel like I'm on some kind of a wierd trip or something, and I never left the flippin' farm. So hard to describe right now for I feel as if I am floating around in outer space and it's been a few hours since session. Take care of yourself @micky. :) JJ

 

[micky]

sounds tough "jades jewel".i wonder how long this lasts and when do we see an improvement?they are doing something to our brains......but what?
I remember after my last session,i just felt spaced out.we had to go to friends house after and i just sat in the corner.i think i know how a ghost feels ...!

 

[Deleted member 37085]

sounds tough "jades jewel".i wonder how long this lasts and when do we see an improvement?they are doing...

Emdr sessions for me are h*** worse than term "tough" you used above @micky! What does your T @micky tell you about your questions regarding how many of your specific and tailored to your past trauma sessions you will need in order to assist you? I cannot answer your questions about your emdr sessions and honestly you need to ask your T specific and direct questions about your emdr sessions. How long have you been in emdr therapy and how many sessions have you been through with your T?

For each emdr session and T, and client (trauma survivor) well, @micky we're all different. No cookie cutter emdr sessions scheduling, and each T is also different with different methodology and how long - this is per patient based and no one can answer your questions about your emdr sessions and experience except you and your T together. Have you told your T about spacing out after your emdr session with T?

And that you went to your friend's house and sat in a corner, and that you feel like a ghost post session, yes I feel somewhat disconnected at this moment, mentally fuzzy, spacy. Yes. I understand this @micky. I do. These are all important issues and information that I hope you will also share with your T and not just me and your friends, precious micky. T must hear from you @micky in order to either dial down or up? T's length of emdr sessions, etc. You very much need to talk with your T about the above-related issues. If you want to know how my session went yesterday, you can go to trauma diaries and see (I think you are allowed to do this). I am sooo glad you're here and asking questions and there are members here (me for one) who care so very much about you and I am here. There are just some questions that you may ask that I don't have the capacity to answer. I am not your T. However, I am your friend, and I am here for you, and I am very grateful for your post! So keep posting! and asking those difficult to answer questions of members here (me too!) and of your T as well, please? Wish I could help answer your specific emdr questions and again your trauma sessions are geared by your T to fit your trauma needs and hoping all the best for you @micky. JJ

 

[micky]

had a few EMDR sessions now.its strange,because I feel some what better,but the past seems very foggy.i am finding it hard to find the right words..!