As for what your Psychiatrist told you. I never knew that in order to have a diagnosis of PTSD that one had to actually "feel traumatized" by the traumatic event.
I, too, never 'felt traumatized' by what happened to me. It was 30 years later that I was told that this was a traumatic event in my life which started my PTSD. To me, then and now, it's a part of my life. Granted I've learned a new way to deal with it other than ignoring or sublimating it. But until someone put the label of 'trauma' on it, I never would have thought, 'OMG...I've been traumatized!'.
Odd question-IMO.
Lisa