I Saw A New Therapist Yesterday

[somerandomguy]

This guy is experienced with trauma work. He has plans to do lots of EMDR with me, focusing on my previous marriage.

He seems competent, and I think I can work with him. I am attracted to his confidence. I was talking about sexual guilt and mentioned something about how it's something that I will just have to live with for the rest of my life, and he said "No you won't. We'll fix it." I have my doubts about that, but I'm glad he's positive about it.

Honestly I am tired of therapy. I've been in it off and on for a dozen years with varying degrees of helpfulness ... maybe this will be the last time I ever have to do this. But thinking that way makes me anxious - it's just easier to assume I'll be broken the rest of my life. In any case, it's going to be a long road, no matter what happens.

Sorry for the unfocused rambling :dontknow:

 

[CCurry]

Goodluck with your new therapist and the EMDR. Along with CBT my bf has started doing EFT and he's excited about it because he's never done this type of therapy before and so far so good.

Keep us in the loop about your new therapy. It's great that this therapist is confident, I always like to see that with a professional but his comment about "we'll fix it" would make me feel uneasy. I hope what he meant is that he'll make it better.

C.

 

[anni]

Sometimes I read posts, and in the midst of what people are feeling it seems as if their hopeful selves are popping out and leaving little messages. That is really a much clearer statement than it sounds. :)

"I think I can", "I am attracted to", "glad he's positive","maybe this will be the last time'- all these are inately hopeful fragments of sentences in your post. I do not mean to frustrate you by giving you one of those 'yay-rah- perky little lectures, because I'm not, seriously! :) You are obviously SO depressed, and awfully, awfully tired from your daily struggle with this dam PTSD that it's also obviously beaten a lot of the hope out of you. My point is that somewhere in you IS that irritating little perky person who IS making you get up and out to the therapist, to stick your neck out again, to imagine a life beyond this constant depression and dreck and terrible self image. You sound like a really genuine, sweet man ( although my husband generally cringes at being described as 'sweet' and wishes there were a more masculine term. There isn't so he has to suck that one up. :) )who so much wishes to be well. It does take a lot of energy when one feels like you do at the moment but please do allow yourself that hope? The PTSD success stories is well worth a browse if you have the time. They're not smug or condescending, just rather joyful and satisfying, you know?

I agree with C in that it is cool to hear a therapsit sounding confident so hopefully that is where this one IS coming from. There's a thread on therapists horror stories which tells about dreadful ones we've all endured so bad ones are out there. The same thread has a lot of stories that end with having found the right one, finally.

Like I said, I hate to sound too dam perky when you're clearly NOT, but I just see the hope is in there so please allow yourself that much! Keep posting to let us know how you're doing, and take care?

Anni

 

[eyebiter]

As long as we have HOPE...we have a chance!!!Hang in there this could be the one for you. Good luck and take care

 

[CCurry]

I totally agree with eyebiter about the hope comment. When my bf started with his new therapist she was very hopeful and that becomes contagious and you're right without hope what's the point?

Take care

 

[Pixie]

Well done Somerandomguy! I really hope that this one works for you. Just... take your time and see how it goes... one little step at a time yes?

Rell