I Want To Go "home".

[Tanishq]

an absence of peace or love or caring, or a presence of violence or unsafety or unpredictablity or even hidden agendas, takes away the relief.

Thank you so much for understanding me. That is exactly how I have been feeling all this years.

I think feeling like one is not welcome in their own home or family cuts deep at the heart and self-esteem level.

There is this wound,too.

I am also thankful I have roof over the head.

 

[saoirserylyn]

During the first half of my life I did experience this. I struggled with finding an identity (related directly to never feeling at home anywhere). This led to years of pulling horrible people and horrible environments into my life. I needed intensity in order to feel anything.
I did the opposite of what was needed. What I really needed was safety, love and a sense of being valued by others. Eventually it all came together for me, when and where I least expected it. Things aren't perfect, but at least I've found a "home".