It's not the same as the shit you've dealt with, but sort of parallels it in a small way. I do hear where you're coming from.
Thanks Joey!
I'm genuinely not trying to start shit but yah, especially in a place like this where so many of us have trauma around being disbelieved. Like, for me it was actual
trauma. I was berated by a police officer for 2 hours for "filing a false police report." They found
video evidence && declined to pursue an investigation against the guy.
Just a couple of weeks ago I was hospitalized and a nurse, looking at my diagnosis in my chart, looking at my medical history, looking at
Google (she
Googled my story to check if it was true?) she
still was like "mmm, this doesn't seem right." Because she had never heard of the therapy I was going thru, she couldn't comprehend what I was telling her, and she just straight out dismissed me && was skeptical the entire time.
That's so damaging.
Especially because due to my experiences my brain is basically a pile of noodles anyway && I often think I am just crazy and psychotic and I doubt my own reality
all the time,
ALL the time. I've had multiple therapists accuse me of lying, yell at me, kick me out. Multiple police officers (I had
another incident where a cop said I was lying because they called the police on me
for having a flashback. As in, no event had happened, but I was extremely high on drugs and repeating "I was raped" over and over again -> I was a minor at the time, as well.)
Now imagine if there was some kind of "faking PTSD" test that they gave me && because of the nature of my trauma and my disorders (RAD, ADHD, TBI) which means I am incredibly neurodivergent && my trauma responses do not look like other people's responses. There is no data on how people like me process the world because there are no studies on adults who were diagnosed with RAD as children. My fundamental ability to form human relationships is impaired, which means that tests like this will produce chaotic and inconsistent results.
I can just imagine someone telling me, "Oh, you failed the PTSD veracity test," while straight up looking at my damaged leg & internal organs.
And due to the nature of how human beings cannot detect deception any better than the toss of a coin, and because you can't sort out the data that you're getting
anyway (as anyone could be lying, how would you know? What if you get a bunch of liars and call them "genuine" && when you take the Faking PTSD Test the parameters are entirely wrong because they're based off of liar's information?)
I just think that this kind of thing will be more harmful than helpful. As abuse victims we are constantly gaslit && told to be liars, crazy, etc.