Interview Tomorrow -- Ridiculous Anxiety!

[Kintsugi]

I have never, ever been stressed out about a job interview ever. I am an excellent performer (thanks, PTSD, for giving me so many masks!). I get nervous when applying because if I could just get one foot in the door and speak to the employer, I know I can get the position.

I'm interviewing tomorrow for a job that I don't want but that pays fairly well for my education bracket and living costs. Why am I so nervous?

Part of me is very upset that I'll be leaving my dog alone for several hours at a time for the first time in a month. But I think that's just an excuse.

I feel like I'm on the edge of a panic attack. And why? Because I have a chance to make some money?

*deep breathing*

 

[Sammy]

Good luck with the interview! I am kind of the same way. If I can get in for an interview, I have a good chance at the job. I get nervous, too but I know it is a fear of too much change and wondering if I can handle the stress of a new place. I always spend the first few weeks at a new job with nearly overwhelming anxiety. Once I settle in to a routine, I am usually OK. You can do it! You deserve a better paying job! For me, I always missed my dog way more than she missed me... she just slept so she could be full of energy when I got home! I always had to convince myself she was OK when in reality, it was me who wasn't.

 

[Kintsugi]

Sammy, you're making me think I have an alter-ego who has an account I'm unaware of. You hit the nail on the head for how I feel. I think I've forgotten what it's like to get into a job that is not directly in my field of expertise. I usually spend the first few weeks at a job going over and over every mistake I made that day (when I was working in an ice-cream shop, I would try to fall asleep and just see different ice cream spills and other petty disasters over and over again).

I'm probably just freaking out because it's a new place that I don't know that much about. And I know it's totally entry level, bare minimum for any sort of experience or professionalism. So, I won't be in my element, but neither will anyone else probably.

Ugh. Sigh.

 

[Sammy]

I recently finished a degree for teaching English as a Second Language. I have taught forever but always music or primary grades. When I first started teaching English a few months ago, I was terrified and spent hours planning and figuring out how to explain things. I swear I studied harder than my students! 3 months later, I am more comfortable but still not confident, even though my students seem happy to see me each day and some who are no longer my students, keep in touch and search me out. I just can't hear I am successful. I think success scares me for some weird reason. Probably because I was never good enough growing up.

 

[Nicolette]

In a hurry - haven't read the thread but best of luck!

 

[Kintsugi]

Thanks, Nicolette!

You chose a hard field. I teach ESL here and there. I wish I could just score a tutoring job or something in language arts. That's where all of my experience is focused, writer's consultant stuff.

Complicated duties don't scare me if I understand them. Tell me to handle a switchboard and I will panic.

 

[Kintsugi]

Panicking.

 

[The Albatross]

Breathe... ground... play some of your favorite upbeat tunes... and know we're pulling for you!

 

[KP the nut]

Slow down, calm deep breathes. Concentrate on something around you.
Look at the support you have here, we are all sending you strength.
Linking arms
KP

 

[Kintsugi]

When I go in, I'm going to just imagine KP (represented as Tigger) and Alba (a noble soldier) walking in with me.

Thanks guys. That actually really helped, just the support.

 

[The Albatross]

Heh... *doing her best Mr. T impression*
"I pity the fool that won't hire you!!"

:whistling:

 

[charliehotelwhiskey]

Good luck for the interview.
You will do just fine.
Deep breathes and remember there are a whole bunch of us cheering for you. :tup: