Seeking Safety Chick
New Here
Good evening from NYC,
I believe I have come through the other side of C-PTSD which I've had most my life. I'm also here today having survived alcohol abuse and homelessness, going on ten years now. I'm smart, talented and have had two successful careers but the C-PTSD took over and nearly killed me along with drinking to cope. But, I'm OK now. I'm still facing homelessness but this time I have embodied my first priority: safety.
Over the years, I did not know what that meant. I've been in 3 homeless shelters and many friends places over the years and now as I prepare to go to what I believe will be my final foray into homeless shelters I am able to keep my eye on my target which is my own home. It's kind of complicated but my perpetrator came after me in the courts after I escaped him and I lost everything in terms of money and material things (and my driver license). But I still have my life and today that one thing is the only thing I care about. I have embodied my second priority: serenity.
It will take some time to rebuild but I know that step by step I will get a but closer and meanwhile my serenity lies within me and as long as I stay focused nothing can stop me now.
PS I am an athiest/humanist, do not attend 12 Step meetings and believe in ethics and self-responsibility (which sometimes means asking for help). I'm in therapy in a domestic violence counseling center that utilizes the Seeking Safety model. I'm preparing to begin a 39 week breathing-integration process called The Presence Process.
I believe I have come through the other side of C-PTSD which I've had most my life. I'm also here today having survived alcohol abuse and homelessness, going on ten years now. I'm smart, talented and have had two successful careers but the C-PTSD took over and nearly killed me along with drinking to cope. But, I'm OK now. I'm still facing homelessness but this time I have embodied my first priority: safety.
Over the years, I did not know what that meant. I've been in 3 homeless shelters and many friends places over the years and now as I prepare to go to what I believe will be my final foray into homeless shelters I am able to keep my eye on my target which is my own home. It's kind of complicated but my perpetrator came after me in the courts after I escaped him and I lost everything in terms of money and material things (and my driver license). But I still have my life and today that one thing is the only thing I care about. I have embodied my second priority: serenity.
It will take some time to rebuild but I know that step by step I will get a but closer and meanwhile my serenity lies within me and as long as I stay focused nothing can stop me now.
PS I am an athiest/humanist, do not attend 12 Step meetings and believe in ethics and self-responsibility (which sometimes means asking for help). I'm in therapy in a domestic violence counseling center that utilizes the Seeking Safety model. I'm preparing to begin a 39 week breathing-integration process called The Presence Process.
