Intrusive Thoughts

[Whyteferret]

I have many intrusive thoughts sometimes. They're demented ear worms.
Most of them are about the trauma, things he told me. What happened. What. Could, should, and didn't do differently.

I re-experience it sometimes.

One thought I get so often: "I'm better off dead." "Why didn't I die?"
I don't feel suicidal usually. When I do, things get real.

Anyone else have this?

 

[The Albatross]

At one time yeah sure... it is your starting place, the starting place of your awareness. So now whatcha gonna do about it? I vote for learning how to cope/deal.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I had EMDR and I do not have the torment and anguish of intrusive thoughts anymore. It really changed my life for the better, I realize that I was ready for it though. But the difference is like night and day for me now.

 

[let it rain]

I have many intrusive thoughts sometimes. They're demented ear worms.
Most of them are about the t...

Holy f-ck, I have horror stories playing in my head all the time. Stuff I wouldn't tell anyone. I ruminate about the worst things happening about 3 or 4 hours a day on average. If I am lucky I can focus on something better. I coach sometimes and when I coach I ruminate about the practices and games all day. That is better than the blood and guts. I have had some very real dreams where I was in Hell. I take a lot of meds