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@NovemberStar said "I used to become very suicidal and it hurt so much"...that's exactly what happened, she was tired or whatever, I picked up on it, cried the whole time (which she didn't seem to understand and I couldn't explain), and then I asked her for the suicide prevention/hotline number because all I was thinking about was I deserved to die :(. That's what I think is the scariest part, I see someone i care about deeply upset/grumpy/whatever, assume it's my fault, and then want to crash my car! Argh!
As for attraction/love, more than anything else, I think I would just like to sit in her lap like a little kid :) while she tells me it's okay. Although, I have told her before I hated her and then fell apart needing quite a bit of reassurance from her that we were okay and she knew I didn't hate her.
But the problem, well one of the problems, comes up when other people tell me "ya, bad things happened when you were a child and through your life, BUT you're an adult now! You don't have the think that way anymore!" OMgosh! If I just knew HOW to think like an adult ahhhhh!
Thank you so much to all for discussing this with me! I think it's really helping!!!
As for attraction/love, more than anything else, I think I would just like to sit in her lap like a little kid :) while she tells me it's okay. Although, I have told her before I hated her and then fell apart needing quite a bit of reassurance from her that we were okay and she knew I didn't hate her.
But the problem, well one of the problems, comes up when other people tell me "ya, bad things happened when you were a child and through your life, BUT you're an adult now! You don't have the think that way anymore!" OMgosh! If I just knew HOW to think like an adult ahhhhh!
Thank you so much to all for discussing this with me! I think it's really helping!!!
