DID Is it did?

[iwannadeletethis]

would it be considered DID if the persons not sure if they made up bits and pieces of their childhood because a lot of things were very unclear and traumas are repressed now and again.. So they live by an identity they're not sure of.. But do it anyways just to have one? Like the putting things together makes something to have and hold on to? I had such a strange and abusive childhood, that most people don't believe me when I talk about it. And then that plus the parts I'm not sure of, make me very unsure of my past sometimes. Is that just denial?

 

[Ronin]

@Skitzii, I'm sorry to hear of your hardships.

Though as far as I know, D.I.D. diagnosis requires a presence of two (or more) distinct personalities in order to be diagnosed; as well as specified memory & other cognitive & behavioral issues to be present.

In other words 'simple' insecurity about one's identity, or putting on masks / facets, however complex? Doesn't yet a D.I.D. make.

Denial, I wouldn't know about that. Sounds your approach to it is rather embracing, and your mind's not shutting you off on 'something has happened' completely?

 

[iwannadeletethis]

@Skitzii, I'm sorry to hear of your hardships.

Though as far as I know, D.I.D. diagnos...

Hey!! @Cashew thanks for your reply :) I don't think I know what you mean by my brain shutting me off!! Would you please explain that further?

 

[Ronin]

@Skitzii, you're very welcome.

I mean, that it doesn't sound like conscious denial on your behalf, and doesn't sound fully as denial outside of your control either?

Less than denial issues with recall and fluctuating memory.

 

[Friday]

This might help...

https://www.myptsd.com/threads/dissociation-explained.13879/

 

[iwannadeletethis]

@Skitzii, you're very welcome.

I mean, that it doesn't sound like conscious denial on...

That makes sense thanks @Cashew !! Any advice on how to get over not knowing things about your childhood? I just want to leave the low self esteem and confusion it gives me behind.

 

[iwannadeletethis]

This might help...

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Awesome :) thanks @FridayJones !!

 

[Ronin]

@Skitzii, give it time & don't linger on details you don't know, focus on what you can gain from what you -do- know and how to heal from that, the rest will come with time (and some of it may never come, there's that eventuality).

By acknowledging you maybe can't change the past, but there's still moving forward even with incomplete recollection of that past, and you didn't live lesser because of it.

I'm sure we have a couple of topics centering on this & personal journeys of people, so read up mayhaps? ;)