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@Miss_Understood - please let someone else take the reins now. You don't have to be a superman. Your wife is responsible for her own care. You can't carry both of you. Please do call a crisis line and let someone else look after you and your wife. You both need help and I do hope you can both get into therapy, if you are not already. Let some of that pressure drop. Neither you or your wife are going anywhere for the time being, so just let things be and worry about what the next stage for your marriage is later on when you are feeling stronger. This is all coming to a head now so you can sort it out with help. Please just make that phone call and keep on talking to us here, if it helps.