I'm so sorry you are going through this Michelle4help. To me, it sounds like you need to get into therapy very quickly. And communicate really well with your partner too so he can understand it's not him, but what you are going through.
Also, post on the sufferers side of the forums if you haven't already. They probably have a lot of suggestions and guidance for you.
Also, post on the sufferers side of the forums if you haven't already. They probably have a lot of suggestions and guidance for you.