Like No Matter What I Do

[jenLoneWolf]

Everyday I seem to be getting worse. I have started therapy again and even was told that the emdr therapy I have done didnt help but made things go the other way with opening all my past open with no way to cope or close it. It doesnt matter who it is I push everyone away and all i want is one person to love and be there but why would anyone want that when all i do is push away i makle it impossable to be around or care for but thats all i want everyday i think about dying and cutting myself till all my blood comes out but that is selfish and the only people who cant leave me is my children my two kids so i cant take me out they need someone and im all they got and i know they say god doesnt give you more than what you can handle but im at my limit and it keeps coming idk what to do or how to cope im trying to get better i want better i want the old me before all this crap happened but i cant be her anymore and like no matter what i do it is wrong i am wrong why?

 

[ladee]

You are not WRONG. Work needs to be done to help you feel better.
And thank you for saying you will not take your life!
No..you will never be the "before" you again.
Doesn't mean you cant be an awsome you in the future.
Glad you are here.
Lots of hope here..grab on to some And take baby steps!

 

[Justmehere]

It's not a sign of something being wrong with you that you are struggling after EMDR. It's simply a sign that you worked really hard in therapy, and you need some support and help learning how make it through this.

It may help a lot to look into the therapy that helps build up skills to cope like DBT or ACT therapy. It can be pretty life changing for some people.

Don't lose hope, keep hanging on for your children. :hug:,