Lost And Scared

[Lw715]

Hi. I'm not sure if this the right board but I don't know where else post. I'm really struggling to stay afloat right now..I don't want to leave bed, get dressed or go to work. We had a snow day today and I cried from sheer relief that I didn't have to leave my house. I'm wondering if I can call out tomorrow ...I don't want to do this anymore. I can't pretend to hold it together just to collapse at the end of the day in sheer despair. I actually sent an email to the business manager asking about short term disability because I am so lost and it's so hard...the flashbacks and nightmares won't stop...I have no motivation to start or complete work...I don't want to keep going on like this ...its a walking living nightmare...I'm so scared

 

[Intrepid]

I used to take "mental health" days. It helped sometimes. Medication helped me get up and get through the day, but most doctors hesitate to prescribe what really helped the most, so I had to find other ways of dealing.

My therapist did a lot to get me through the flashbacks. For a while every time I went to her office I'd flashback. Great place to have that happen.

I've been through years of that stuff. It's awful. After a lot of therapy I still have some body memories that are pretty disruptive.

Virtual hugs to you.

 

[Lw715]

I had a frightening experience in the car last week...I heard my attackers voice as if he was in the car with me...scared me to death....

 

[shrinkingviolet]

I know the panic is overwhelming, as if breathing is the only thing you can do at the moment. Take baby steps and don't beat yourself up about not being able to cope or function as you think you should do. Be gentle with yourself, you are healing from a very deep wound and it will take a toll. One day at a time. I wish I had better, encouraging words or could help with the fear.