Lost, Scared And Alone - How Do I Make It Through Each Day?

[Moey]

It has been awhile since I have emailed. In the last year I have fallen down cement stairs at home and factured my tailbone and foot all because my landlord wouldn't put in a light bulb so I could see going down the stairs.

I have been in the hospital for a nervous breakdown for a 3 week stint.

My best friend died of cancer.

I have lost my job, I am in bankruptcy, I am now getting welfare which is 610.00 a month and waiting to see if I will be approved for disability. I have also had to move 4 times.

My PTSD symptoms seem to be all over the place and I feel like I am on a roller coaster.

I know my problems are no worse than anyone elses but I am at a complete loss as to how to make it through each day. I am afraid to answer the phone or talk to people as I feel like I can't take any more bad news. I barely wrote this email.

Does anyone have any suggestions? Your suggestions in the past have always been so helpful.

Thank you in advance for caring!

 

[tryintobreathe]

Moey,

I am so glad you posted. You don't have to be alone. You are going through so much right now. I think it helps just to have a place where you can talk about things that are going on. I broke my tailbone once....OUCH!!!! I also understand being in financial straights and being terrified to answer the phone or open mail. I am sending good thoughts your way!

Jen

 

[Butterlamb]

Hey Moey

I dont have much advice to offer, just the knowledge that if you ever need someone to talk to myself and the people on this site are here to help you through your emotionally painful rollercoaster ride. :Hug_emoticon:

Butterlamb

 

[onebravegirl]

Hi Moey,
Gravity reminds us that the whole world sucks! When in the middle of a "storm" as I called them, there really isn't much else to do but ride the waves. Try and keep it in your mind that THIS TOO SHALL PASS. The best thing to do is make your self as comfortable as possible. Baby yourself a bit. Eat something you enjoy, even just a little. (For some reason Pomegranate's helped me. I think it is because of all the peeling and finding hidden rewards.) Watch a old favorite movie or listen to music you like. Keep yourself comfy warm. Cry hard of you have too. Make sure to come back here too so we know how you are doing k'? You are not alone, and eventually this stress will ease up.
Thinking of you,:hello:
O

 

[Nicky31]

Hello Moey

I'm pleased that you have come to the forum to share your thoughts and feelings. Loss is a tough enough thing to deal with without injury and PTSD too.

I relate to your statement of being afraid to find out anymore. I have had a year very similar what with a car accident, various betrayals and so on. I have had to keep telling myself that things have to get better (don't they?). They do for a bit and then something else has seemed to happen. I've felt the progress made has been lost, but I hope that really I am still making that progress, it's just so so so slow.

Keep in touch and I hope that you will find some support here.

Nicky

 

[Lionheart]

My only suggestions are to break it down into small steps and take it a day, an hour, or even a minute at a time. Don't forget you have people here who care and understand and take it easy on yourself when things get rough. Treat yourself well, pamper yourself and remember it will get better, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, but it will get better. My best to you.