My experience is on and off dissociative shutdown which is a different kind of pain than continuous dissociation... When this happens, I can't feel anything, feel empty and detached and disconnected.
At the beginning of my relationship with my lover, I experienced it occasionally. But the more we got closer, the stronger and longer it became.. Now I spend most of my time in dissociative state and the feelings comes back occasionally
It has gotten to a point that my memories are also fading away.. I can't even recognize my lover and feel like it's all just a dream.. and to add to that, the feelings do come back and crash me at once, now I'm living a life like rediscovering my own lover over and over again...
At the beginning of my relationship with my lover, I experienced it occasionally. But the more we got closer, the stronger and longer it became.. Now I spend most of my time in dissociative state and the feelings comes back occasionally
It has gotten to a point that my memories are also fading away.. I can't even recognize my lover and feel like it's all just a dream.. and to add to that, the feelings do come back and crash me at once, now I'm living a life like rediscovering my own lover over and over again...
