My Test Results Are Back.

[Deleted member 20280]

It's almost too bad that you've had the experiences that you've had.

My personal experiences are no worse than those of any other single member on this forum, I fully appreciate your love and hug's @scout86 , I consider you to be a very dear friend of mine on this forum.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I wish only to update members as to my current health situation.

Last night was one of the most terrifying nights of my life, If I lay on my right hand side I was squashing my right lung to the point of asphyxiation.

If I lay on the left hand side of my chest I was in so much pain I simply could not get to sleep.

My breathing is so labored when I lay down I am constantly haunted by the sensation that I could die in any given moment from not being able to breath. Tonight I went to the karaoke for the first time in months as I have now come to the realization that every day could be my last, I collapsed after singing my last rep-set and had to be picked up from the floor and driven home by a deeply valued and much loved mate, Mike rescued me and drove me home so that I could not collapse on the climb of the hill back to my mothers home where I now find myself living.

I am a UK military Veteran and have been abandoned by my government and left homeless and relying on my mother to put a roof over my head.

I am a father of six and yes I am a proud man, I fought for my queen and country and faced death straight in the face every waking moment of every day of my life during my military service. Now I face death head on as I am diagnosed with Cancer, Potentially fatal cancer at that, I will not find out for certain until late next week.

I bid the forum goodnight.

:hug:s and Love Mr Laurie

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Well, if I do have terminal cancer then it can simply go and have sex with itself !! or Fuk off.

I am going to live every day as if it is my last, last night I attended my local for the Karaoke evening and performed a rather technical set, I was there with the DJ a really good mate from the Military and was having a good evening until a group of punters arrived and BAM! a good night suddenly turned into the greatest night of my life so far.

Mike, Mark, Martyn, Dean, Shannon, Tracey, Luke had all come into the pub for a quiet few, MY CREW had turned up to join in with the Karaoke, the Final Song of the night is always reserved for me to perform and I did Michael Buble's Feeling good with the whole pub joining in, it was fantastic to say the least, I was struggling most of the evening to breath due to the pressure of the haematoma situated just below my left lung, but it was so worth it, I had a really great night.

I came home afterwards and actually slept for the first night properly in many a month, I managed this with no medications at all and slept peacefully right through until 4 am when I woke to use the toilet and get a glass of water, I then returned to bed and slept again peacefully until 10 am, getting approximately 9 hours solid sleep.

I feel enlightened and refreshed this morning.

:D

 

[Anarchy]

Laurie,
Somehow I missed this thread until now.

Wot @scout86 wrote!

Stay strong, hang onto that " may be"
@

 

[Forgetful]

@Mr Laurie I'm sooo sorry to hear of your current health troubles. I pray for you and hope the biopsy results aren't as bad as what you are thinking. It must be very scary waiting for the results. Waiting sucks, it can do your head in.

I know how scary this can be, not from my own experience but from talking to my best friend who has terminal cancer.

I'm glad you had a good time with your mates the other night. That is so important to do.

Keep strong. Keep fighting. We're all pulling for you. Cyber hugs coming your way, speeding over the pond.
:hug:

 

[Deleted member 20280]

After an excellent Sunday I had probably the worst day of my life so far yesterday. I ended up being spiked after a so called friend bought me a pint, guess I will not be going drinking with him again.

Man my head hurts today as a result. Hey ho we live and learn eh.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Well I am off to the doctors in half an hour, hopefully they can drain the hematoma today so that they can gain access to the tumor below my left lung, I had the worst night ever last night, tossing and turning all night long, I simply could not get off to sleep for love nor money.

Hopefully I will also be picking up my numerous medications as I have not had any now for nearly 14 days.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Well, that was a total waste of time, I have had to DE-register and Re-register with another Doctors practice. Hence I am now having to be re-referred back to oncology again.

The hematoma is still in situ as they could not excise or drain it today and I now have to face waiting for a further Endoscopy, more blood tests today, bloody arm hurts now as Dracula sank both fangs in, blood thirsty bitch !!

Oh and apparently my medications list has been buggered up and I now have to wait in all day to receive a phone call telling me whether I can have my pills or not, UH! I am already registered on the medications chart, and have been on these particular meds now for over 6 months, WHAT pray tell is the problem !!!! all repeats are recorded on my drugs chart in plain view ???

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and hoping for the best possible outcome for you.

 

[scout86]

The system there sounds horribly complicated! I was hoping they'd move things right along for you. Hang in there @Mr Laurie

 

[The Albatross]

Very sorry bro' just catching up. Highly suspect... in you situation a friend bringing you a pint? My drinking buddies were enablers... just sayin'. Prayers for you and agree with scout 100%.

 

[void]

As promised I am updating the members of this forum as to the recent tests I have been undergoing for...

May deep peace reside in your innermost being, may your fear dissolve into joy and comfort.:hug: