Nerve - Muru's Song

[Muruluisku]

This is a song I wrote/sang in therapy for my dad. Shame I can't share the melody..imagine fast pace, angry melodic rock..


Sometimes I catch myself thinking
Wishing I could beam into your brain
The knowledge of how you hurt me
That you could actually feel it
And know the shame that surfaces
from time to time again

Please don't go pretending
That you don't have memory of it
You know, I'm not that simple,
not your easy four piece puzzle, you
took my trust for granted,
thought me as your stupid doll, I say

You have got a lot of nerve
that much is clear by knowing you
Too much trust, forgiveness, love
you've STOLEN with that nerve
Where'd you get that attitude
That you can just divide and rule
What hurts me the most is
I can't stop myself from loving you

I'm so tired carrying all this baggage
Especially cause
it doesn't change a thing
If we could go back in time
Would you do it all again
Or could you fight the bad
and be the best that you can be?

You have got a lot of nerve
that much is clear by knowing you
Too much trust, forgiveness, love
You've STOLEN with that nerve
Where'd you get that attitude
That you can just divide and rule
What hurts me the most is
I can't stop myself from loving you

Yeah I know now
What I'm feeling
But I cannot
Ever say out loud to you
I'm scared
to look in the mirror
What if one day
staring back is you

I won't shout no, or get angry,
demand justice
There's no point in doing that
What's done it is done
all you get from me is
a look that you don't understand

And it tells you more than words could ever tell you
What is going on so deep buried inside me
Bubbling away and waiting for the moment to arise
When it gets released and be free from all the bad

I think I can see through you
but do you even have a clue
How far I have travelled on this road without
help from you
Or maybe I should cheer and clap
and show appreciation
You made me grow up quick
and stop believing pretty fiction

You have got a lot of nerve
that much is clear by knowing you
Too much trust, forgiveness, love
you've STOLEN with that nerve
Where'd you get that attitude
That you can just divide and rule
What hurts me the most is
I can't stop myself from loving you

Where'd you get that attitude
That you can just divide and rule
What hurts me the most is
I can't stop myself from loving you

Myself from loving you


<3: Muru

 

[Lucycat]

Sorry - I couldn't read it to the end - it made me cry:coldfeet:

 

[KwanYingirl]

Poignant tune. How can he look himself in the mirror? I hope it becomes a hit and he ends up hearing it a million times on the radio.

 

[Mercy]

Wonderful song that really 'tells it like it is.' Congratulations on writing it. There is a thread for our poems on this site. It would be great to have your poem posted there and get more readers.

 

[Muruluisku]

I'm so sorry Lucy for making you cry...I didn't mean to :( (hug)

Thank you Mercy and KwanYin for listening, I wouldn't think this would be a bit since I'm not sharing it any wider than this, but it's a nice thought :)

I'll have a look for the thread for poems Mercy...what's it called?

<3: Muru

 

[Mercy]

I'm not sure. Maybe a search on threads about creativity or poems would work. If not ask the help desk.

 

[Tanishq]

Muru, your poem is always from your heart. Honest and brave heart. I hope you are well there at the moment. Hope you found the poems thread by now and posting there?

Kind hug if you accept :hug:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

This deeply touched me. Thank you so much.