New And Nervous

[Lady of Longbourn]

Getting help will help you. It will help with daily life and bigger things like marriage. But PTSD is permanent and running from it makes it worse.

Talk. Speak!

Believe me I spent years not talking! Years not even knowing that some things that people were doing were wrong, and that I was not to blame! It took this forum (and a few people) to show me that I was wrong!

 

[Blutarg]

I understand how alone you must feel right now and your anger. I think perhaps you expect him to be more understanding? Maybe his expectations were different too? You are probably feeling a lot of anger because the feelings you felt back then are now exposed and your husband is getting the brunt of them without both of you knowing it. Unfortunately this is what happens when we face the past. It is exposed together with all the other ugly stuff that comes with it and that brings about all sorts of foreign emotions. Just be aware that this will happen.

Are you in therapy at the moment? Do you have a friend you can talk to? I am asking this because it is better to vent to someone else sometimes so that your husband has a little breathing space. He probably doesn't know how to deal with all of this himself. This forum also provides a platform for you to vent your feelings and by doing that, sometimes it helps you to get a better understanding of how you feel and a way of sorting out your feelings.

Also remember that your anger is just a symptom of an underlying problem. Anthony has some very good, easy-to-understand articles under the "Articles" section, so when you have time, go and take a browse through some of them.