New Here - Raped By My Family And Friends From The Age Of 13

[alone81]

Hi - new here and just hoping to learn from others and start to process this aspect of my trauma. Very nervous and visit this site with a great deal of trepidation.

Long story short - the first rape trauma was when I was 13 years old. My father raped me in order to educate my older brother on how to have sex. This was the start of multiple rapes from my father, brother and my father's friends.

I have only just disclosed this to my T and don't know where to turn now. I am currently still living in the family environment.

 

[Nyx]

Hi and welcome. I'm glad you joined us and hope you find the answers you are looking for.
It's a dreadful way to start a life, but you fighting this means they won't win!

You say you are still living there. How old are you? Is it still happening?

 

[alone81]

I am 27 - embarassing I know. Yes it is. Not as often - bit of a tricky situation. Tried once to leave but backfired badly.

 

[Nyx]

How did it backfire? You need to get yourself to safety if you're to start healing.

 

[alone81]

How did it backfire? You need to get yourself to safety if you're to start healing.

I realize that.

It backfired because once I left my father threatened to do something to the only person that I love if I didn't come home by a certain time.

That's why it is a tricky situation, I am currently working on a plan with my T to make sure the necessary things have been completed before I leave in order for it actually happen and stay that way. There are just a few rather large obstacles that I need to get over before the plan can become a successful one.

If you feel like there is an issue by me being here, given I am still in the environment then I will understand and remove myself from the forum. I was just hoping to find some strength by reading and learning about how others have done it and possibly find that much needed strength to get me over the line so that the healing can start.

 

[Str3ngth]

No I would definitely stay on the forum, I think it can help, especially during this difficult time. I hope that you get the things done that you need in order for you to leave and go to a more permanent (and happy) home. I can only imagine how difficult it must be to live in the same house or with the same people that hurt you. I only live in the same town as my attacker and that seems impossible..

I wish you luck, and offer an ear to listen or someone to talk to, if needed.

 

[leanne1321]

My thoughts are with you and I hope that you can get out soon. You are strong and you can do it!

 

[Nyx]

If you feel like there is an issue by me being here, given I am still in the environment then I will understand and remove myself from the forum. I was just hoping to find some strength by reading and learning about how others have done it and possibly find that much needed strength to get me over the line so that the healing can start.

You might have understood my questions wrong. There is no way I was telling you it's a problem for the forum. I am worried about you being in this situation and was trying to understand better. Please feel free to read around and ask away.

I am glad to hear you have support in your plan to get away and hope it works out well.

 

[Deaf Global Nomad]

Hi Alone81,

I am so very sorry that you are still living in the abusive environment! I can understand totally how the coercive and threatening behavior can make us do things the abuser wants. I am very glad that you are in good hands with your therapist and that you two are making plans so that you can leave the environment forever and have everyone be safe.
Please stay on the forum! To help people like you is the reason the age minimum for this forum is 13 years of age.

Best Wishes!

 

[alone81]

Thank you all for your welcomes and words of encouragement. It really means a great deal to me.

 

[cherryblossom]

Welcome to the forum :wave: