Hi, all I just found this site, and i have been looking for something like this for awhile.
I first truly realized that I was ptsd, and also d.i.d. when I was 19, it was actually because my mother was getting counseling for bad stuff that happened to her and i got really triggered about it all. I also just got married to my girlfriend at 19 we had been together since we were 14. And she was pregnant so I lot of opportunity's came up for me to be triggered and get healing...
my great uncle got into a sadistic cult, and my mother and some other relatives that were toddlers have had years of abuse, my mother never abused me but as i was growing up she was d.i.d. and just barely surviving so she was really never aware of the abuse that was happening to me outside the house.
The most Horrible stuff has happened to me and I am sure must of you can understand, i dont feel like typing it all now. i have many journals full of it, and art books. I haven't been abused since i was 19, Now I am 26. I am thankful to my mom for also changing her life around and helping me have the courage to go through the awful memories and get healing.
I sometimes feel so bad for my wife because until about 6 months after we got married we started finding out about this stuff, she didnt and i didnt know that i had this past. And she is korean and korean culture doesnt allow men to have pain, they just tough it out, so it has been hard for her. but now she is starting to be able to talk to my younger alters and they know she is safe. so its still a challenge but i am proud of her for dealing with this also I am sure its just as hard for her in a different way.
anyways could go on and on, but its nice to find others that understand,
I first truly realized that I was ptsd, and also d.i.d. when I was 19, it was actually because my mother was getting counseling for bad stuff that happened to her and i got really triggered about it all. I also just got married to my girlfriend at 19 we had been together since we were 14. And she was pregnant so I lot of opportunity's came up for me to be triggered and get healing...
my great uncle got into a sadistic cult, and my mother and some other relatives that were toddlers have had years of abuse, my mother never abused me but as i was growing up she was d.i.d. and just barely surviving so she was really never aware of the abuse that was happening to me outside the house.
The most Horrible stuff has happened to me and I am sure must of you can understand, i dont feel like typing it all now. i have many journals full of it, and art books. I haven't been abused since i was 19, Now I am 26. I am thankful to my mom for also changing her life around and helping me have the courage to go through the awful memories and get healing.
I sometimes feel so bad for my wife because until about 6 months after we got married we started finding out about this stuff, she didnt and i didnt know that i had this past. And she is korean and korean culture doesnt allow men to have pain, they just tough it out, so it has been hard for her. but now she is starting to be able to talk to my younger alters and they know she is safe. so its still a challenge but i am proud of her for dealing with this also I am sure its just as hard for her in a different way.
anyways could go on and on, but its nice to find others that understand,
