Open Letter To My Possible Readers Who Want To Let In The Cure.

[philostam]

Why I'm leaving this forum

I don't want to be dramatic, but someone may follow back my posts there in the future, who want to cure himself from PTSD too; so I have to tell him why came this sudden split in my activity.

1. The first thing you have to understand my friend, that this forum is created, ruled and edited by PTSD-sufferers. If you've read my posts carefully, you know what it means. Anyway, I was banned because of my following post:

"It took an hour to edit the very important Van der Kolk article from pdf, removing a lot of stuff, editing it so everybody can read it pleasantly. Now I received an editorial message that I would have to go to every single line with my mouse, and hit 'delete', then 'space', so that the holy rules - 'The Great Rule Of The Full Lines' - be left in peace.

But the editors missed the whole thing, because the article is a POEM!!!"

I was immediately banned. "Reason: Argumentative, attacking posts towards others."

That manner in Europe would be seriously inappropriate. It is violation. Senselessness. Deafness. Dumbness. But guess with what Europeans punish that manner: not with pure violence, but with humor, with esprit.

Anyway, don't be mad at them: they don't see it because they are - can I say it without being banned? - sick, they have PTSD so they just don't have the right sense of judging what is an "attack", and what is a joke (which by definition has to be a little attacking, that's why it's funny). I wanted to answer to "Nicolette" in a private message but then that joke came to my mind and it was so funny that I posted that thread, in the Chit Chat area, with an abnormally long title, and with a very good joke, I have to say.

So whether it's a blessing that this forum exists or not, the fact is fact: it is a slightly terroristic place, because with ruling and editing they take revenge on their inner chaos. Just a little ruling, just a little "taking charge" - that is what is missing to them in their lives, and the compulsive craving to get it back IS PTSD. Others do drugs, they do that forum. Very sad thing, but PTSD is a very sad thing.

Well, with that they've lost a person who has understood PTSD and the cure.

2. The second reason is that this forum is just the same as the Stuttering Forum. And it was a madhouse. Nobody really, essentially wants to cure himself, because PTSD is the wanting to NOT to be normal, because normality is traumatic. They enjoy the new "method", the new "hope", but with that arguing, talking, writing, chatting manner they just won't succeed, and it's necessary, because they don't want to, their frontal lobe can't trick their ruler, their amygdala. You can't either, but you know it.

So you, my friend, have to decide what is that you want. If you're my friend, then you've already decided. I've written down with golden tint for you that PTSD is necessarily curable, and what methods would work in my theoretical view.

3. The third reason is that I'm no longer a PTSD sufferer. I've cured myself. I just wanted to stay here to adapt my theory of stuttering to PTSD. I wanted to leave you the needed articles to your home-made cognitive therapy. But you'll understand, that with my freedom I have better things to do than arguing with people who edit articles without any sense, naming whatever rules, playing the shepherd who defend the herd, who are seen PTSD-puppets. They'll never see, that what's offending is not what I'm saying but their manner taking it offensive. This is not a personal matter against them, ... -

No, I won't try to make another joke.

All the best,
Mate Sandro

from Hungary

P.S.: My last post will be the following posting my theory developed to stuttering. It may help you, because there's no difference in substance, but PTSD develops in other ways on the surface. And that theory is years older, so that key terms are not explained or explained poorly. So you have to think a lot more. I'm really sorry. But who knows, maybe it's a benefit.

 

[philostam]

(My primal theory, specified to stuttering.)

A different approach of the so-called stuttering

Main standpoint: Stuttering is an effect of the brain's hemispheric dominance problem.

TRAUMATIZATION.

1. Hemispheric dominance problem caused by traumatic experiences. (It could be genetic, but then an ancestor had been traumatized.)

2. A traumatic experience caused not by an outside cause, but the will to avoid it. There is no such thing that "a trauma", but a constant TRAUMATIZATION, that is done by the very me. It's a form of hypnosis, and the stronger the outside "cause" is considered, the stronger the hypnosis will be. (I suspect that we had developed this technique facing - or to be precise: not facing - with wild animals.)

EXPLANATION. The biochemic description of a traumatization is that the right brain is much more used than the left brain, furthermore I suspect that the left brain is blocked. Why? Because in a flight-or-flee situation we mustn't think, hesitate too much, we have to give up the functions of the left brain (what makes us "human", or to be precise: a very intelligent animal), and recline upon our right brain functions: seeing the situation as a whole, responding emotionally, blindly obedient to the first urge arises, pin our faith on the success to escape/win etc. - That's why I had stated before, that there's no difference between "neurological" and "psychological", there's no "brain" and "me".

The biochemic description of the dominance problem is that when the brain gets dopamine, the balance (so: the dominance of the left hemisphere) is upset. It may cause a lot of problems, like dyslexia, mental disorders, hand dominance problems, motoric problems, coordination problems, addictions etc. etc. etc. In one word, the most important word: problems of CONTROL. (The simple state of mind called "envy" is an issue of a slight dominance problem: if you'd see clearly, you couldn't be envious. But you can't control you feelings. There's no difference of substance between envy and schizophrenia.)

Anxiety is the WITHDRAWAL EFFECT of your Will. You see your girlfriend with another guy, and your brain is flooded by dopamine, which means: you just gave yourself the command to avoid the unspeakable loss: losing your Precious. Even if you use a lot your left brain too (strategies, a lot of thinking), the primal urge is rightish. The anxiety is the fear of not accomplishing your goal, that is considered by your right brain as instant annihilation. Thus, every uncontrollable urge turns to a PHOBIA, when it can't be appeased.

INSANITY.

Insanity is and only is a pathological (prolonged) hemispheric dominance problem; the pathological hemispheric dominance problem is itself: insanity. Just a little envy is crazy too, but it doesn't take root, it fades soon. But it can overrule your life, and cause anxiety problems, mental disorders (for example narcissistic disorder).

My definition of insanity is: being controlled by a will rather than controlling it. Thus a simple working man could turn to be workaholic, if the desire to work perfectly melts in his hands and starts to rule him. That roots in a false belief: that without working perfectly he would worth nothing. Phobia of losing something we consider the most important thing in our life.

STUTTERING.

1. An ancestor or ourselves traumatized.

2. Hemispheric dominance problem arises, thus - in our case - stuttering.

3. Our Mother (or someone important) sees our stutter a problem, ourselves a problem.

4. Thus we learn, that if we can't speak properly, we lose our Mother. In that time (2-4) our identity is based upon Hers. So if we lose Her, then we lose ourselves. Total annihilation.

5. The fear of total annihilation renews the traumatic experience: it strenghtens the traumatization even more. (For example: a simple barking dog triggered our first trauma, that we could have easily leave behind.)

6. Thus every stuttering situation is a trauma, or in my view: in every case when we suspect that we could stutter, we strenghten our traumatization: our uncontrollable will to control our speak.

7. That will is uncontrollable, because we are that will. A will can't want not willing itself. At that age, we totally became the-one-who-tries-to-gain-control-over-his-speech. Mother is Me, so I want to defeat that awful stutter that stands between us.

8. Later, Mother is out of the picture, thus the situation becomes: I want to defeat that awful stutter that stands between me and Me (what I identify myself with).

9. That will continues and strenghtens the traumatization, thus hemispheric dominance problem.

10. Thus stuttering.

THE VERY CONCLUSION.

Stutterers are - clinically - insane people.

THE CURE.

1. There can't be a cure, because insane people can't want their very will to be dismissed. Psychiatrists, speech therapists just strengthens it in long terms, treating just the symptoms of the insanity.

2. Stutterers can't cure themselves, because wanting to cure themselves (wanting to be fluent) is their very insanity.

3. Do not listen to what a stutterer says, tells about himself. If you're a stutterer, start to misgive about every little movement, thought, feeling of your insane self. Hope strenghtens your insanity. Self-pity strenghtens your insanity. You can do nothing else but strenghtening your insanity: yourself.

4. If you finally believe that you are insane: you aren't insane anymore.

5. But dare not believe that you can believe it. It's a cheat, again.

6. So the only way you can be free, if you finally stop wanting to be free, entirely, for the first time in your life, letting in the ultimate truth.

7 or THE ULTIMATE TRUTH. You can't be free. You are free.

 

[Deleted member 541]

All I can say is.....What a bunch of bullshit.

 

[anthony]

Hi Sandro,

You are being dramatic in essence. You obtained a temporary ban for not what you wrote in your post on the above mentioned thread about curing PTSD, but for the crap you went on with in the chit chat forum that got removed. You blatantly attacked editors and staff of this forum. No member of this forum will be attacked by another and allowed to continue with it. If you want to leave the forum, then that is your choosing, though there is no need for nonsense. You have posted some good material, though that does not negate you going on little rampages upon this forum. This is not your playground, it is a community that works harmoniously due to a common set of rules agreed by the majority.

I think you will offend many by again ranting above, telling others they are sitting around in misery. Yes, some are, but the majority aren't, and they work hard to obtain a better quality of life. So you apply a label to all.

Sandro, PTSD has no cure, this is not debated anywhere in the world. There are but a handful off people who have actual medical science that they had PTSD and no longer have it. LRS is one of those people, with pre and post MRI's, now being reflected within LRS daily life. Unfortunately that does not make a cure... it means something worked for one person, it may work for another, but won't work for everyone. If you actually read that thread you will see other ambidextrous persons who are either ambidextrous by nature or who have also learnt the behaviour and still have PTSD. Again, not a cure, but it did work for LRS which is good reason for others to atleast give it a shot. LRS never claimed it was a cure, but only a cure for himself.

Unless you have the medical science to back up your conclusions, as LRS has, then ranting about a cure is nonsense. If you are better, then that is excellent, but it does not define a cure by any means. You could have simply been misdiagnosed with PostTraumatic Stress (Acute Stress Disorder) and never had PTSD. Big difference between the two. Misdiagnosis is high between PTS & PTSD. If someone comes up with something that out right cures a majority, and I mean completely reverses the chemical imbalance that takes place between the right and left brain hemispheres, which is PTSD, then that would be classed as a cure.

Regardless of facts, you do not have the right to attack any member of this forum, staff or otherwise, not acceptable. You did it, I gave you points which you inherited a temporary ban from, and now you come back with little smart arse comments within the above about staff and even members in general. You will undo yourself Sandro, without anyone else's help. Respect others and others respect you. Simple.

I will actually go as far to say, that you disappointed myself. You had some really interesting things to say, then you ran off attacking others because something went a little wrong, mis-interpretations, etc. Instead of asking for clarification you went on the attack.

 

[rjtransient]

So you have to think a lot more. I'm really sorry.

*applause*

You've got our attention, apparently. Your style reminds me of a certain John R. Brinkley. Not to say anything about the validity of your own arguments, of course, just that there's a resemblance. The espirit.

Self-pity strenghtens your insanity.

I agree.

Write a book. Seriously. You've got the stuff. I recently did a random scan of the Psychology shelf at the local library. Leaving out Sylvia Browne and the most obvious fluff, I saw titles like Harmonic Wealth, Happy For No Reason, The Dumbest Generation, Grand Theft Childhood, Psychic Pets, Nice Girls Don't Get the Corner Office, and The De-Stress Diva's Guide To Life. You're beyond that. [By the way, this isn't limited to psych. First title on the Technology shelf was 'Is This Thing On?': A Computer Handbook.]

It's not as if I'm a neuropsych student or anything, and it's 6 AM here, so I'll have to leave your primal theory unread for the time being.

Thanks for the tangent. Best of luck.

 

[Nicolette]

You were not banned due to the formatting of what you stated was "An Article" and were only given a warning for not applying the forum guidelines. The rules that you agreed to and were warned to read before becoming a member of this forum!

You were banned by Anthony for attacking in Chit Chat. I read the posts and there was no joke to be read. Others felt the same so it wasn't just one biased opinion. You attacked me due to a post I wrote when I misunderstood one of your comments and, when you explained yourself, I apologized. There is no need to carry on like an attention seeking child by posting in other areas trying to pull others down.

So whether it's a blessing that this forum exists or not, the fact is fact: it is a slightly terroristic place, because with ruling and editing they take revenge on their inner chaos. Just a little ruling, just a little "taking charge" - that is what is missing to them in their lives, and the compulsive craving to get it back IS PTSD. Others do drugs, they do that forum. Very sad thing, but PTSD is a very sad thing.

On last checking, no one is forcing you to be here so why carry on creating negative attention. If you just came back and went on being a contributing member you would have possibly received attention for the content you were sharing and not acting like a nuisance. Your actions have caused me to be less interested in what you have to say than more interested. If your ideas are so great then perhaps you should ponder what have I just said.

As for things missing in our lives, get on a plane and come over and observe our lives before you make unfounded and incorrect judgments and assumptions. I don't have any compulsive craving other than to offer my time freely to the forum both as an administrator, following the rules decided upon by members, and as a Carer.

 

[anthony]

I have closed this thread, as it can only be destructive from this point IMO. You have a clean slate once again... your choice.