Parents Are Assholes.

[Deleted member 28403]

It's nearly 11 PM and I asked for two 5 mg diazepham pills so I can eventually sleep, and as I was sad and feeling bad, I didn't want to talk to them. And my dad just started speaking bullshit of me 'giving up on being a mathematician to have problems' and such for a bit. They don't understand a single thing and I don't have the nerves to listen to them for a single minute. Today he went with shitty advice that if I have problems, I should work more, because 'less work makes more problems' and I'm already stressed and everything due to lack of rest and the amount of work (I spend ~11 hours outside the house due to stuff I have to do). I hate them for just talking like it's just me acting. I hate them for negating my problems and I hate myself for having problems. I hate life.

 

[Justmehere]

:hug: I'm sorry things are so rough.
Your profile says you are 14 years old. Did you quit school? Why is he giving you such a hard time?

 

[Intrepid]

Hope the diazepham helped. There were times it was all that held me together.

Parents aren't always the best source for advice. They don't always understand problems. They sometimes think its all just a way to get attention, or that you want to have problems, or that it's just because of bad choices. None of that holds water.

I doubt you want to give up math for problems. He's being silly.

I've seen a lot of posts where people complain that no one understands their PTSD. And most people don't understand.

Your parents may never understand. If they've gone through trauma, they may not have any recovery.

You may have to let your parents be who they are, and find people who get it. That's not easy to do. I've been there. For a long time it wasn't possible to find help and understanding.

I wish you the best with your parents.

 

[catjudo]

I'm sorry you're having a tough time with your parents. I do have a couple of observations/questions, though. You asked your parents for two diazepam...why two at once? Why not start with one and then take another one later if you needed it. I'm guessing you have 5mg tablets for a reason since diazepam does come in a 10mg tablet. Also, it's worth noting that diazepam is meant to help with anxiety...feeling sad and bad isn't a reason to take diazepam. That's not what it is meant to help with.

I don't really know you or your story. I'm just wondering if even part of the conflict with your parents could be because they are concerned about how much and why you're asking for the diazepam?

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@catjudo
No, if you listened to them you would notice that is not the problem. I took 2 pills because one pill had no effect on me at all. It was night and I wanted to get some sleep. I can't sleep so my normal is 3 hours. With enough time of just laying in bed I get to really bad depression/anxiety and cry a lot without much reason, I become afraid of being abandoned and stuff. Read my trauma diary for info.

@Intrepid

Thank you for support. My parents really try to make mad, it seems ti me. After I took the pills, I went to bed, and after 30 minutes my dad came up and started talking about me needing them and that I will fail if they left me on my own. I hate him and everyone.

@Justmehere

U didn't qyite school ir anything like that, I'm an excelent student, I am prepairing for math, physics, croatian and english competitions and I got quite high on math last time, but my parents are quite crazy. My mother is a complete control freak while my dad just enpties his nervousness around whenever he gets in a fight with mom, as he can't stand up for himself aganist her. I hate all the pressure they set on me.