Parents Who Dont Care

[hurrley]

Long story short...i ha e an addict for a father. My ptsd flared and i cussed him (yes, terrible, I know) and he kicked me out. Hes bipolar and my former abuser. My mother has severe anxiety and teribble case of denial.
I watched him berate her my whole life yet they blame me for every arguement they have and if I argue, i am always wrong and if i communicate my feelings, i get kicked out.
Im 25.
Theyve kicked me out twice before. I dont yell. Oncewe get into arguements, They scream at me and I ask themto stop for the sake of a flashback. They dont care.
Ive stayed n a homeless shelter twice n the past year. I have scoliosis and cannot bear the bunk beds there.
My mom and I usually get along...and my dad and I try not to communicate.
So zoned out today. Stayed with my friend last night. Im scared to go back there..they usually want me back but this time the hate in his eyes made me think it was permanent.
Im so stressed. This happens and then calms down. I have nowhere else to go. How do i deal with this stress ??!

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

Hi Hurley, do you have any options for moving out of their house?
I'm not sure I understand how come you live with them, when they are treating you like they do.

I don't know if you work/are on disability, or are financed by your parents. If it is the last, they have a bunch of power of you that is misplaced, and at your age shouldn't have to be necessary.

It would be great if you could find some kind of way to finance your own place. I've stayed in places as small as 9m2, but if the environment is at least acceptable, it isn't that bad. It's better to live some tiny place than with people who make you feel crappy.