Psychopathic Abuse/stockholm Syndrome

[Cannottakethis]

@Zoogal
I haven't spoken to my sister in a year. Not planning on changing that. Sisters can suck.

 

[Gs172003]

@Zoogal
I haven't spoken to my sister in a year. Not planning on changing that. Sist...

My mom told me I'm lucky my current husband is still with me since I would have issues when we were intimate. Nice huh

 

[lostforgottensoul]

issues when we were intimate.

Ummm, mom, get your nose out of where it shouldn't be!

 

[Muted]

If someone told me this was their story, I would be amazed and I would ask how they survived this.

What I've been through doesn't even compare to this, however, I can relate to the being brainwashed part. Even though I wasn't physically taken to another location, I felt like I was being held captive. It took me a long time to realize I was being brainwashed and truly out of everything I have been through that is the absolute worst part of everything. The major affects from it didn't crash down on me until after I got out of the situation, but then I fell apart. Eventually, I was able to start healing again but it has always haunted me...

Hang in there, you're obviously incredibly strong!!!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I felt like I was being held captive.

I wasn't kidnapped but I most certianly was being held captive. And it took me FOREVER to see that I was but there is not doubt that I felt that way at the time.

It took me a long time to realize I was being brainwashed and truly out of everything I have been through that is the absolute worst part of everything.

I feel that way too. Trying to undo this brainwashing and deprogram myself is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.

I think the other part that was equal to that is seeing it as abuse. I still today can't say some of the words my therapist does but that took insanely forever for me to see.

 

[Gs172003]

I will never understand people's reactions to other peoples abuse as if they REALLY know what they would do or how they would be if they tides were turned. They don't.

 

[Muted]

i agree @Zoogal !!

 

[Muted]

I wasn't kidnapped but I most certianly was being held captive. And it took me FOREVER to se...

The mind is so powerful...

You will get there. I think it's almost like a protective part of the mind that keeps us from seeing the whole entire horror and complete reality of being victimized by psychopaths, because if we didn't, I think the horror of what we went through would be overwhelming. The brain's job is to survive however it can.

You're a strong survivor, don't ever forget that.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

I will never understand people's reactions to other peoples abuse

My dad minimizes it to being not abuse. Which is so very hard to deal with as I am having trouble keeping a strong understanding that it was indeed abuse. Meaning him minimizing it makes me guess myself. Was it really abuse? Was it really that bad?

My therapist says that the saying "that's unbelieveable" is a saying for a reason. That it is so terrible that it's hard for people to believe. That would rather tell themselves it isn't true or minimize it to something not as bad as it's easier for them.

It sucks ass though. Not having anyone that believes you.

 

[aut555]

We often become victimized again when we retell our stories and nobody believes or downplays the abuse. So tell your story and become empowered with that, is what l live with. I feel like l have been played with no real goal in mind by abuser except that l walked away and started rebuilding my life, my soul and remembering what l liked and loved about myself before l met "him".

 

[L83201]

How differently would you think of someone if they told you this was their history?

I would think that someone is a hero.
I met someone like that and I'm so lucky and grateful every day that I never saw that person in real life. We talked for less than a year, and I got out. I'm so lucky. That person was a psychopath and of the worst kind.
I also had disturbing relationships with other narcopaths but not of the worst kind and so I survived. Now I think this freedom is awesome and the best thing that has ever happened to me.
The PTSD I have because of all the shit I met in my life is the best thing that has happened to me, because it means and it shows me that they are no longer there.
I do relate. But always try to remember it is over.
Now it's all you, and it sure is lonely sometimes, but it's also amazing.