Constant flashbacks... Some more vivid than others .... Panic attacks... Doesn't matter where...
I remember it all too well. I had flashbacks starting about 6 months after I was kidnapped and raped. Man were they intense. It was like they seemed real. I knew they weren't because they were always of the situation that happened, and the events that happened around my kidnapping.
Mine have gone away. It's been about 7+ years. Because of my first set Flashbacks. If anything triggers them.I have new flashbacks of new events.
Awful.
I hear you. I also worry will I be strong enough to deal with all this alone.
This for me happened at the worst time. I am single. No kids. My siblings are all married. One has kids.
I'm going at this one alone. It's awful.
I think you should get insurance from Obamacare. Medicaid is free. You can see a therapist for all you PTSD symptoms.
Believe me it takes some work. I tried CBT before. I didn't love my therapist..
They don't understand what it's like to have flashbacks. It's so hard holding back the tears. It's so painful.
But that would be a great solution for your PTSD.
CBT is cognitive behavorial therapy. I call it good old talk therapy. It helps.
Good luck.