DiamondBug
Bronze Member
I've always had really disturbed sleep. Especially horrible nightmares. I've go through a stage every couple of months at the minute, where all I have to do is sit on my bed/my boyfriends bed and I drop to sleep really unexpectedly, I'm not even tired, when I wake up I have no idea where I am for about 10 seconds then it floods back to me that I'm in my own room/my boyfriends room. Sometimes before I've fully woke up I've jumped up and I started to run out of bed, which I have no control of and obviously is terrifying to wake up to. It's like an absolute blind panic. My heart is racing, I'm almost out of breath and freezing but sweating. I've done this off and on since I was about 9. I sometimes do this more than once a night, it can be up to 4 times a night. It's not like I'm uncomfortable in my room/my boyfriends, I feel my safest when I'm with my boyfriend. It's like I can't sleep in peace at all. I don't know what this is at all. Nothing seems to sets it off either, it just comes on randomly. I think it was brought on by abuse then more severe trauma happened 3 years later and it got a lot worse after that. I just don't understand why it just comes to haunt me randomly.
