Scared Of Seeking Help

[Kaishi]

the first time I was asked to try it I thought. "Are they kidding? I don't need this bullshit". But, the bullshit works, and I still do it every day.

What SD said.

Similar path, here.

 

[Demonic charity]

Do any of you have a hard time talking to the docs? I find myself trying to make it out like I am doing ok. I play it off and wear a mask basically. When in reality I am struggling with just being alive at times. I don't know what to tell them. I feel crazy saying that I am scared to even leave my house. I get dizzy and have a panic attack even driving down my driveway. I have a panic attack when my damn phone rings it is work or family or someone I know because I don't want to talk. I can't go anywhere. It's hard for me to do anything. I don't know how to tell them. I feel crazy even posting this. I feel like a lunatic. And when I start feeling normal and I talk myself into something. I end up losing it because I try to move to fast with what I am doing. I don't know what to do.

 

[Iceman]

I think i can speak for most of us, and say yes.
it is hard to let yourself out, and reveal your weaknesses. we were trained to be fighters, and not show weakness. that is built into us. it is who we are.

I still after a few years, have never revealed my issues outside of this website, my wife and kids, and a very few close friends. even my siblings don't know.

I also still go into full panic whenever i have to talk to anyone from VA as well.

what you need to do is develop a relationship with your psychologist. once that has been established, talking does get easier, at least with them. the rest will come in time.

dragon told you about breathing.
when you start to panic, STOP what you are doing, close your eyes, breathe in from the belly slowly for 4 seconds. hold for 4 seconds, and release slowly for 4 seconds. wait for 4 seconds and repeat (do this 4 times). it helps A LOT.

 

[Deleted member 43454]

Yup I am getting slowly accustomed to it but at the beginning I definitely was freakin out so I went in to the VA and explained.
Basically what I got from it was exposing yourself to the situations for a limited amount of time and slowly working yourself
back up to staying longer etc. I was worried about saying how bad my anxiety was but after I opened up about it the doc explained
to me it was common. Opening up to being vulnerable has been incredibly challenging after war we grew to understand being vulnerable
could make you dead. So like Iceman said it seems you're the only one going through it cus nobody wants to show weakness.

They started me on some Effexor last time I went and it ended the anxiety but messed me up so I leaned off it.
Cannabis can sometimes cause panic if the strain is unknown so I overall would just recommend taking the leap of faith and getting the help you need by explaining the anxiety. Be wary of big pharma.

Work on the breathing technique SD mentioned. Don't wait until it's worse.
Also, PT is good for you, good for me.

 

[vikingr24]

Also, PT is good for you, good for me.

Somebody said the magic word finally: PT. All right, get off your ass and let's do some jumping jacks. Are you ready? One, two, three....

Thank you, Sargeant. (A long maniacal laugh follows.....)

(Just kidding, Manonfire. Had to say it.....LOL)

 

[CyclePath]

I didn't want to talk to anyone about it either. So I sat on my 03, 04, & 05 deployments, buried them and did my best to move on. Well, late last year and into this year things became unbearable. I realized that I was getting nowhere with my issues by myself and I decided to get some help. I came here at roughly the same time and everyone told me that I needed to be really honest with myself and communicate with my therapist. I've since realized that that is the truth and that it is a really hard thing to do, but my therapist can't help me if I don't tell her my issues. When it is all said and done my therapist is merely telling me how to help myself. She isn't really helping me in a manner similar to a doctor performing surgery. I am helping her help me. If you don't give a therapist the problem then you may get nowhere. Just my opinion with my what I have experienced so far - which isn't much.