Someone Explain This To Me, I'm Not Sure

[Deleted member 37868]

K, I have a bad memory, and sometimes it seems to get so bad that I can't remember things from the previous day. I also have almost no thoughts or feelings on the trauma I suffered, I mean nothing. I have problems with pills so obviously that's not helping. Most days I feel so incredibly numb, or I feel the most insane anxiety and or paranoia. I'm coming off the pills, and alcohol but honestly this memory thing as been going on a lot longer than the pills have. If I study for an exam I have to do it 24 hours straight or I completely blank out. I'm having to appeal 2 classes for this semester, and I'm really worried for the next one. I can't be in a room of people rn, if someone is talking to me it's like I can't hear them, or I can't remember anything, it's very distressing and part of why I started abusing my meds in the first place.

 

[Lucycat]

Right. I am nervous here as I think you have aimed your message at 'K' and I don't know who that is.

I do understand memory loss. It is really hard to remember facts for studying, but I do hope that if you break it down you will be able to achieve it,

 

[Deleted member 37868]

Haha no k like as in okay, I hope so it seems to have been getting worse lately, I went from a 4.0 to failing 2 classes

 

[shimmerz]

So then, have you been seeing a therapist that knows trauma? Do you have any support in this way?

 

[Jenfa]

Oh absolutely. This thing seems to drain the brain to the point of borderline retardation from sleep deprivation/malnutrition.
BUT..
I would get checked out physically to be safe. Neuro workups, sleep studies, all that stuff you probably don't want to do. I hated that journey. Come to find out, I have a genetic condition, but also learned (the hard way) that inflammation and blood pressure can do things to people that I never thought it could. Sleep is awful but most times I don't realize it because I'm sleeping lol.
Physiologically, these things made the ptsd so much worse. But seriously I will not stop getting my checkups. Alzheimer's runs in the family, early onset. Just be careful with confusion or severe memory problems. Seizures and breathing problems can do more damage than people think.
Good luck!
Jenfa
P.s. Good luck! Wait.. did I already say that? Oh look, a puppy! Good luck!