Something I Learned About Me

[hogananjiggs]

I learned that I react wildly because an intrusive thought comes in my head and to extinguish it I get mad. Ex
Went to Hope Bay lookout (it's a great view) and in my head... I heard... the brakes will fail and we will crash, and go over the edge and die ..then I got courage looked over the edge and jumping off came in along with gross thoughts.. then Liam ran to the edge.. buts it's wet so he won't be able to stop and he will fall off and die. He didn't fall off, he won't , but I can't tell my brain that or shake it the only way is to get angry to remove that thought.
$%÷! That's a lot of energy wasted in seconds not to mention a nice view was made ugly.
So I spend countless hours battling these thoughts. I will beat them I will.

What do you do to beat them?

 

[shell]

I have always found my intrusive thoughts come when I won't accept my emotions or I am dissociated. For me acceptance of my emotions that unlay the thought helps, I recognize what I am actually feeling, rather than the crap that is being created.

If I am driving along and suddenly have thoughts about dying in an accident, or the car rolling over, I check back into my body and I am usually afraid.

Just noting it, helps it settle and it takes my focus off the stupid thoughts, which created the fear.