Struggling

[ForestOfPain]

I found this site in a desperate search for help tonight dealing with my suicidal feelings. I just feel like the only way out right now is suicide. I know it will change. It usually does right? I just can't get past this urge right now. Its so strong. It just hurts so much. The flashbacks are so intense and I fear that I'm not strong enough to deal with this... I'm scared.. sorry

 

[ronin47]

It does change. I am living, breathing proof of that. I've been exactly where you are and came out the other end better than I was when I went in. Find ways to distract yourself. Find chores around your house that need doing. Call the National Suicide Hotline (18002738255) and they can help you get through the moment. It is scary, frightening, terrifying, but it does get better, it does change. Try not to think about tommorrow. Just focus on how you're going to get yourself through today and make it to the end of the day so you can sink into your nice warm bed and forget about the world for the night. Message me if you need to rant or vent or just talk about anything. I'm a good listener :). You can get through this.

 

[ForestOfPain]

Thank you so much for the kind words. I just hate this so much. Its so hard. And I hate the people that did this to me. But maybe I did this to me. Maybe its my fault. I don't know its all confusing right now. I might call that hotline. And thank you for the messaging invite. Might just take you up on that :)