Struggling today with myself. I continue reaching out. No replies. And I get that. Yet sometimes I'm angry and frustrated about being ignored. Then I kick myself and remind myself to remember when I was in the throes of shutting down. So I reach out, funny memes, Happy Halloween, nothing heavy. Because I want him to know the door is always open. Quite doubtful anyone else is trying. He's alienated himself by sabotaging relationship's by iisolating. So that's where I'm at today. Don't need a pity party. Just wanted to vent. Thanks.